Alicia's Birthday...
Happy Birthday, Alicia. I will love you forever and for always... and I will never forget you.
Today would have been Alicia's 18th birthday. It was such a rough day, and one of many realizations. I drove passed the pole after school instead of taking my normal route home and there weren't as many flowers there as I thought there would be... I'll need to fix that. Then after school Caitlin and I went to the cemetary. I can't even write about it, I just can't put it down in set words that will last forever because then it will seem too real, and I'm still not ready for that. A year and a half later, it still hurts, and it is still hard to deal with.
I am almost 18. Why will I get to celebrate that birthday and she didn't? It doesn't seem fair... but it has taught me quite a bit. It is days like today that remind me of how short life really is. It could end at any moment and we may never get to say the things we wanted to say to people. Things may be left on bad terms with people we really care about and they may never know how we truely felt. It is days like today that make me want to fix things in my life now, rather than waiting and giving them time. But I can't. I said I would give it time, so I have to, but it is driving me crazy just knowing that we may run out of time at any moment. Any wrong turn, any second glance, and time could be done. So what do I do, so I follow what I said I would, or do I learn from Alicia that we must say today what we may not be able to say tomorrow? Because tomorrow may never come...
I can't even explain how much I miss her and how much even writing this is hurting right now. What are you suposed to do when the most perfect person you have ever met is gone forever? Yeah, I don't know either...
I'm probably rambling and not making a ton of sense, but at least I got it out. At least I paid tribute to my Daisy... now you can to by walking or running in the race for a dream on sunday may 7th... look on the blake website for details, or ask me.
I love you, Alicia Maria Betancourt.