I'm not lost, I'm finally home.
It seriously doesnt matter anymore who knows and who doesnt.
I had such a wonderful day today, I hold Britt and Mel in my upmost highest regards. Both of them have done so much for me, be it make me laugh when I was feeling down, or listening to my wild tangents.. they were there for me. I have two.. great wonderful friends that I wouldnt give up for the world.
I have a lot of school work to do, but I just haven't been doing it.. and if I do actually do it, it's always half-assed. But hey.. I'm happy.. I'm content. In fact, it .. ahh! I don't know what to say or how to say it.
My home.. my house. Mom and Curt.. they've let up. They're getting along.. we're getting along. My mom's doing better. There's absolutely little to no yelling. It's peaceful when I come home. I finally know what its like to have a mom, I kiss her before I go to school.. tell her I love her every chance I get.
Jess.. wow.. she's a changed person. Truly an inspiration. I love her so much, I'm so glad that I can confide in her. Jess, if you're reading this.. I'm so glad I have you. I wouldnt give you up for the world either. I miss you greatly.. but seeing you makes it all worth while.
I've fallen for someone who knows me without even trying to.. but now, it doesnt matter if he doesnt return the favor, because I've gotten a wonderful friendship out of it. Just talking to him makes me feel so urgh.. I can't even think of a word that describes it, but along the lines of I'm worth something to someone. It's a wonderful feeling, despite the fact if I feel more. I'd rather things go left unsaid, but it's still obvious, and it shouldnt affect the friendship, no?
I'm pretty carefree about that stuff, and I wont sit there and force anyone into anything and/or be sad about it, just because I'm wasting my time.. time when I could be thankful for having true friends.
Whats the big deal about having a crush anyway? It should lead to flattery; rather than an aukward position, due to the fact that I'm not expecting anything in return.
When I look in the mirror.. its not like it used to be. I'm accepting myself for who I am, and I'm seeing something I havent seen in a while: a smile; that look I give.. the aura. I'm content.. happy.. I'm finally living.
It has finally begun.
Content; the feeling of waking up in the morning, being wide awake, yet, despite the fact that outside your covers it is -30 degrees, inside your blankets its just right.. toasty. If you move, you're afraid that you might become cold.. but then you move and its not so bad. After 15 minutes, you decide to get dressed, and start the day.
My day has finally started on the right foot.
I had such a wonderful day today, I hold Britt and Mel in my upmost highest regards. Both of them have done so much for me, be it make me laugh when I was feeling down, or listening to my wild tangents.. they were there for me. I have two.. great wonderful friends that I wouldnt give up for the world.
I have a lot of school work to do, but I just haven't been doing it.. and if I do actually do it, it's always half-assed. But hey.. I'm happy.. I'm content. In fact, it .. ahh! I don't know what to say or how to say it.
My home.. my house. Mom and Curt.. they've let up. They're getting along.. we're getting along. My mom's doing better. There's absolutely little to no yelling. It's peaceful when I come home. I finally know what its like to have a mom, I kiss her before I go to school.. tell her I love her every chance I get.
Jess.. wow.. she's a changed person. Truly an inspiration. I love her so much, I'm so glad that I can confide in her. Jess, if you're reading this.. I'm so glad I have you. I wouldnt give you up for the world either. I miss you greatly.. but seeing you makes it all worth while.
I've fallen for someone who knows me without even trying to.. but now, it doesnt matter if he doesnt return the favor, because I've gotten a wonderful friendship out of it. Just talking to him makes me feel so urgh.. I can't even think of a word that describes it, but along the lines of I'm worth something to someone. It's a wonderful feeling, despite the fact if I feel more. I'd rather things go left unsaid, but it's still obvious, and it shouldnt affect the friendship, no?
I'm pretty carefree about that stuff, and I wont sit there and force anyone into anything and/or be sad about it, just because I'm wasting my time.. time when I could be thankful for having true friends.
Whats the big deal about having a crush anyway? It should lead to flattery; rather than an aukward position, due to the fact that I'm not expecting anything in return.
When I look in the mirror.. its not like it used to be. I'm accepting myself for who I am, and I'm seeing something I havent seen in a while: a smile; that look I give.. the aura. I'm content.. happy.. I'm finally living.
It has finally begun.
Content; the feeling of waking up in the morning, being wide awake, yet, despite the fact that outside your covers it is -30 degrees, inside your blankets its just right.. toasty. If you move, you're afraid that you might become cold.. but then you move and its not so bad. After 15 minutes, you decide to get dressed, and start the day.
My day has finally started on the right foot.