read it. now.

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i hate how innocent beautiful girls feel the need to form to some mold because that is what peeople tell them is beautiful. Over time i feel that girls loose their sense of individuality and self-respect because the standards of what society and the people around them set. For example, there is a girl sitting next to me, with so much mascara on that it looks like she drew long lines from her lower eye lid with eyeliner. Her mascara and eyeliner are so dark that it melts into her eye. She has so much blush on that you dont know what her natural skin color is. She has a fake tan which she probably got from countless hours of roasting herself in a tanning bed. yeah, this is what we call beautiful. I wonder what happens when she goes home and looks at herself. Does she wear all of that makeup because she has something to hide? If she walks out of the house without makeup, is she embarrased? What happens if she cries? I think that her whole face would turn black from mascara and eyeliner and she would go blind from the burning in her pupils. Maybe she puts all of that makeup on just to feel that pain. To take her mind off of the reason that she is crying in the first place.

this is what we call beautiful. yeah, really fucking beautiful