So much on my mind...
Yeah so I started this blog and I closed it :( SO lame.
I have so much on my mind right now, it's crazy. Tomorrow is my first day of college, I'm so fucking nervous my stomach hurts. PUC hates me though, they deleted my classes, which wasn't my fault. First of all they said we had until the day classes started (28th) to pay but aparantly it was the 18th... Well they had me filling out all of this Financial Aid shit anyways. SO needless to say I have a new schedule and I go Mondays and Wednesdays from 2 - 9:30 pm..
And my classes are harder (American Gov, Spanish, Fundament of Speech, Intro to Public relations, and the seminar) so lame.. I'm so nervous.
I'm so scared about not knowing anyone. I know I'm social and stuff, but I am aparantly annoying, so I have to work on that. It's just terrifying not knowing anyone I haven't really felt like that in a LONG time... =/
And then there is all this stuff with Bravo that has me paranoid and uber depressed. I almost cried. It was hard not to. It's just scary and I don't want to be unhappy with Bravo and I don't want to have to quit :(
Then there is a girl (woot a girl!) haha.. no it's not happy woot. It's the girl I'm not supposed to like again. But I'm trying really hard not to. It's hard though having feelings for her already and then yeah... I don't know. I'll shut up. Nothing will ever happen with us again.. which sucks and yeah, I might want it to... but it won't. She doesn't and wouldn't want it so I guess I'm satisfied staying friends :) she knows how I feel so she can go from there. but yeah. Friends is good. =)
I have so much on my mind right now, it's crazy. Tomorrow is my first day of college, I'm so fucking nervous my stomach hurts. PUC hates me though, they deleted my classes, which wasn't my fault. First of all they said we had until the day classes started (28th) to pay but aparantly it was the 18th... Well they had me filling out all of this Financial Aid shit anyways. SO needless to say I have a new schedule and I go Mondays and Wednesdays from 2 - 9:30 pm..
And my classes are harder (American Gov, Spanish, Fundament of Speech, Intro to Public relations, and the seminar) so lame.. I'm so nervous.
I'm so scared about not knowing anyone. I know I'm social and stuff, but I am aparantly annoying, so I have to work on that. It's just terrifying not knowing anyone I haven't really felt like that in a LONG time... =/
And then there is all this stuff with Bravo that has me paranoid and uber depressed. I almost cried. It was hard not to. It's just scary and I don't want to be unhappy with Bravo and I don't want to have to quit :(
Then there is a girl (woot a girl!) haha.. no it's not happy woot. It's the girl I'm not supposed to like again. But I'm trying really hard not to. It's hard though having feelings for her already and then yeah... I don't know. I'll shut up. Nothing will ever happen with us again.. which sucks and yeah, I might want it to... but it won't. She doesn't and wouldn't want it so I guess I'm satisfied staying friends :) she knows how I feel so she can go from there. but yeah. Friends is good. =)