GOD
I just want to die. Seriously. That would make living so much easier.
Who am I kidding?
The only person I want right now is Kayla. I can't fucking do this. As much as I tell myself I can like other people, I can't.
Fuck, to think she's moved on [and she has] fucking hurts like hell. Thinking that she might like other people -> knife through the heart..
She has moved on, and she does like someone else (at least I'm pretty sure.. she won't give me a straight answer, so of course I'm going to assume..) I don't want someone else to take my place in her life. I want that girl to be me but it isn't and I don't think it ever will be again... I can wish and wish for it to be but that doesn't mean it ever will.
I wish I could fix things. I wish I could go back in time and take it all back. I wish that she still loved me..
I'm crying again.. I think I've cried more for Kayla than anyone else in the world.
I dunno, it doesn't make sense for her to like another girl.. none. Because then there is, why can't she like me? What did I do? That would also mean she lied to me.
I'm fucking scared of breathing right now, I'm scared to live another day, I'm scared of what type of pain my heart will endure tomorrow.
I just can't do this anymore.
don't worry, I won't do anything stupid. Unfourtunatly.
Who am I kidding?
The only person I want right now is Kayla. I can't fucking do this. As much as I tell myself I can like other people, I can't.
Fuck, to think she's moved on [and she has] fucking hurts like hell. Thinking that she might like other people -> knife through the heart..
She has moved on, and she does like someone else (at least I'm pretty sure.. she won't give me a straight answer, so of course I'm going to assume..) I don't want someone else to take my place in her life. I want that girl to be me but it isn't and I don't think it ever will be again... I can wish and wish for it to be but that doesn't mean it ever will.
I wish I could fix things. I wish I could go back in time and take it all back. I wish that she still loved me..
I'm crying again.. I think I've cried more for Kayla than anyone else in the world.
I dunno, it doesn't make sense for her to like another girl.. none. Because then there is, why can't she like me? What did I do? That would also mean she lied to me.
I'm fucking scared of breathing right now, I'm scared to live another day, I'm scared of what type of pain my heart will endure tomorrow.
I just can't do this anymore.
don't worry, I won't do anything stupid. Unfourtunatly.