sigh
Is it ok for me to even be so ......ugh there is no word im simply at a loss. Why do I have to fuck things up so badly things were so good and then i go and fuck them up well then what is there to do when the person you love yea im not bullshitting here im not a physco crazy bitch and what ever story you have heard isnt true just simply in love with someone and how amazing they truly are no matter what they think. Simply a great person someone to fall asleep next to, someone to talk to about pointless shit till 3 in the morning someone who loves you back....someone who even when you fuck up so bad like I did isnt completly turning me away. WHAT DO YOU DO when you can't help them. Yea I know you sit back and just wait for them to come to you...but i hate doing that I HATE IT. I know he can be so much, a great an amazing person. I only hope he feels the same like he said he did....its really getting to me slowly day by day wondering if things are getting better for him...gah i can't even describe it without sounding liek some crazy bitch. Bottom line is.........
im in love with someone
and I just want the best for him....is that so bad?
This is caitlin finally at a loss.....for someone who brightens her day.