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im not sure if im happy or not
i guess if theres doubt involved thats a no
i dont know how to make it better either
edit:
of course i know why im not happy
im completely just in denial
i feel like just death lately. all the time.
i have no motivation and everything makes me angry
i sit around just waiting and knowing what i want probably isnt going to happen
im stressed about numerous things so basically being ignored doesnt help any of that
im sick of it but im not willing to do anything to change it
i sit around and let it happen and overanalyze the situation and convince myself that i either am exaggerating what is going on or i tell myself that i deserve it.
i dont expect more. i have no set expectations.
but it still makes me so sad.
theres only one time where im completely happy but saying that makes me feel even worse
i guess if theres doubt involved thats a no
i dont know how to make it better either
edit:
of course i know why im not happy
im completely just in denial
i feel like just death lately. all the time.
i have no motivation and everything makes me angry
i sit around just waiting and knowing what i want probably isnt going to happen
im stressed about numerous things so basically being ignored doesnt help any of that
im sick of it but im not willing to do anything to change it
i sit around and let it happen and overanalyze the situation and convince myself that i either am exaggerating what is going on or i tell myself that i deserve it.
i dont expect more. i have no set expectations.
but it still makes me so sad.
theres only one time where im completely happy but saying that makes me feel even worse