Happy Birthday to LAVI!!!!!!!!
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Who is he?
He is the Bookman's successor.
Belonging to nowhere, his heart unmoved.
Like a gust of wind, he walks through the history, the dark, and feels nothing for the places he's passed...
He has no need for a heart.
You ain't supposed to have a heart!
But.......you did have one...And you still do...
You don't keep it yourself. Because you've given it, for them.
Your HEART has FALLEN, for THEM, your nakama...
Even if it has no right to be that way...
Even if you're supposed to be nothing more than a heartless onlooker....
You're still fallen for them...
Tell me where your heart is,
and why is it still bleeding?
Like the color of Black and White,
The Red is for your Heart...
Like the line between Lie and Truth,
You stand there, bleeding.....
Can you tell me where my heart is?
And which way is for me to walk?
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No more waiting, 'cuz I'm dying of waiting 'til his Birthday.
First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LAVI, MY DEAREST BELOVED LOVER IN THE WORLD! I LOVE YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY!
Second of all, SORRY LAVI! I'M SORRY, SORRY, SORRY for making you that depressed. I didn't want to, I don't want to, and will never want to do that...Seriously, really, drawing you like that, seeing you that make my heart bleed.
I want you to smile...
I want you to be happy forever...
But seems I can't do it, I can't do it myself...'cuz my life is a mess!
Everything comes up, like a storm, and breaks me down, throws me into the bottomless and unlimited darkest side of my mind. So that, I cannot fake a smile on this day.
I cannot…..
I cannot…………
I can’t be an excellent actor, like you!
I did…..for a long time……..but not now, Lavi, not now……
On your Birthday…
I’m not going to be a lie anymore…or at least, on your special day.
I’m not going to wear a mask, and then a smile, and say “Oh yeah don’t worry I’m fine”, but then the rest of that sentence would hurt me a lot “cuz it’s only hurt when I breathe”…
I’m sorry, Lavi. I’m sorry!
For being this pathetic when you need me, my support, and my smile.
For being this depressed, when you need a shoulder to rely on,
For being this miserable, when I myself want to be happy the most.
For you.
You, and only you.
But still,
I love you, a lot!
There’s nothing in this chaotic world can change my love for you. Nothing is going to change my feelings, for you!
Happy Birthday to you, Lavi!
I wish you all the best that I could ever wish.
I wish I could see you smile.
Your smile.
It’s my life. My happiness, my faith, my everything.
It’d raise me up and pull me out from my darkness and agony.
So, please smile. Lavi, please smile!
And stop my tears and my blood from shedding.
Smile…
So that I will be able to stand up, and keep on walking in my way.
Lavi.
No matter what happens to me, and my damn life, I love you still.
I love you always. Forever and always.
Not for your birthday, but for all eternity.
Happy Birthday, Lavi!
When you smile, I smile.
When you’re happy, I’m happy too.
When you hurt, my heart bleeds.
And my tears shedding.
So please, go on…
Keep moving forward…
Then my sorrow would fade away,
and I’ll be able to carry on…
Happy Birthday to you, Lavi!
I love you.
Bit by bit, my love for you grows up
I love you more, and more, and more,
Even much more than anything in my whole life.
I love you.
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*Dying of the beauty of blood*
I love blood. Lavi and Blood.
Perfect.
Gothic, Punk, Bloody Style. And Lavi.
Perfect.
Colored pencils, and water colors, and washable markers. For 4 days.
All by myself, no PS.
I love Lavi!