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"I Love You"
To some, this phrase isused just to say.To others, there is a meaning.
" I love you" withoutfeeling anything is just a phrase that is over usedand often abused.
It can break hearts, ruindreams and kill some if usedto the incorrect context.
"I love you" is a feelingyou have never felt before.Something that just *clicks* and you dont realize it almostuntil its too late.
If used correctly, that phrasecan take a load off of a persons chest and makethem feel fantastic.
When you happen to fall in loveyou will know itits the feeling when you wake upone morning and you goto roll over and kiss themor say Good Morningand they arent there due toa fight and it just brings a sorrow to your heart.
So kids, dont abuse your "I Love You"s.
[020] 7/3/05
[OKAY, SO THIS ONE IS NOT A POEM, JUST THOUGHTS, KINDA A POEM,][BUT NOT REALLY, OKAY? HERE GOES]
I try to write, but no words come to mind. Just pointless ramblings that no one wants to hear. The seriousness of the matter doesnt matter. Hes leaving. What if I dont see him again? I know he loves me, he said it, and means it.
I can never even dream of hurting him. Hes dealt with so much of my shit. My crying, bitching, and listened everytime. Helping me along the way, keeps me here . Happy and now astray. I felt so much today between us, I didnt want it to end.
We spent all day together and not a single argument. I got burned and he put solarcaine on my back and gave me a gentle massage to help east the pain. You dont find a guy that will do that very often. He sat and helpd my hand while we slept.
He left, I cried. I dont know why. I thinks its because I may actually be in LOVE again. The feeling is amazing. and cant really be described. He knows that I am always here for him too. The thing is, I dont have a car yet, so uts harder for me to come to him.
ill listen to anything he has to say, help when advice is needed, give him a shoulder to cry one. I thought I heard a crack in his voice when I said I cried when he left. There is something between us. I can feel it. Something that hasnt been felt for ages. Its indescribable. every feeling i can think of. Love, passion, happiness, relaxation.. its all perfect.
I am myself around him. I dont act like someone Im not for him. All natural. I have to be for him to see how i really am.
*Sigh*
Love
that boi.
Happy 4th of July. [2356] 7/4/05
Music ~ Sugarcult ##Counting Stars##
Public - 12:34 PM - add eprops - add comments - edit it - email it
Something about him
He makes me smile
Something I havent done for a long while
I know there is a happier one
deep down inside
If its up to me to bring it out
I'll gladly accept that challenge
He seems to care too
Could it possibly happen?
I should be patient
Let time set its course
If hes really the one, I hope,
It will work out great
I dont need another broken heart
neither does he. We could do
this together
Truly see what its like to have
someone again. Pure Love,
Thats all we need.
June 22,2005 [1934]
Why is it that I cant cry
When im sad, but out of nowhere
I want to crawl into a ball and die?
Its so messed up! Im totally
backwards and I dont need to be
Its rotten and horrible.
I have those days I just dont want
to be here. I just want to go
elsewhere, out of this house
far the fuck away.
Can I clear this up? Proly not
He might be able to help
I just need to straighten shit out
Damn. Im all mixed up and
I have no idea why
My sister doesnt care,if she does,
she doesnt show it
Thank God for friends
or I wouldnt be able to
survive. This is way to confusing
for me. I'm 18, I dont need it.
6/24/05 [1747]
It happened. I opened up and
spilled it all to him
I guess i needed to vent. it seemed to help the stress built up inside. We clicked, i felt it.. I got promised things I didnt think would ever get promised to me
We can talk about anything. Love, life, my problems, his. I, wow, cant really describe it. I almost made a huge mistake and lost him. Thats where I cried. Just let the tears flow. The most I have in a long ass time. Its a mix of exhaustion,anger, sadness, depression, and more.
After he left, i took down all the old stuff. OLD LOVE. I dont need to think about that shit. he [andrew] is just a friend. He still loves me and if i still feel anything, it will have to wait til I am ready. not him.
Its great to know I can rebound to him[Matt] He will always listen. When he leaves for college, I have nick to go to next. Just as a friend, a person to talk to. It will do me good. I AM lucky after all, I guess. I know Matty, Laura, Nick care. Its just good to know
Its late, I need sleep. Yeah, its not a poem, but its how I feel. Dont like it? TOO DAMNED BAD! Dont read it next time. *chuckle* Wow. Nite
[105] 6/28/05
Fuked up again. No surprise
Im pretty sure hes disappointed
that I havent done anything
for the past couple days.
I cant help it. Im scared now.
I guess, I.. Im not used to it
Fuked up again
No surprise, really
always doing something wrong
not able to find the right
Dont Fuk Up
thats what i should remember
Ive done it once
Ill fuk up again
This shit is getting
me nowhere quick
Fuk it all, dood, this sux.
6/30/05 [2347]
These are to my matty. I <3 that boi. if you like, lemme know.
To some, this phrase isused just to say.To others, there is a meaning.
" I love you" withoutfeeling anything is just a phrase that is over usedand often abused.
It can break hearts, ruindreams and kill some if usedto the incorrect context.
"I love you" is a feelingyou have never felt before.Something that just *clicks* and you dont realize it almostuntil its too late.
If used correctly, that phrasecan take a load off of a persons chest and makethem feel fantastic.
When you happen to fall in loveyou will know itits the feeling when you wake upone morning and you goto roll over and kiss themor say Good Morningand they arent there due toa fight and it just brings a sorrow to your heart.
So kids, dont abuse your "I Love You"s.
[020] 7/3/05
[OKAY, SO THIS ONE IS NOT A POEM, JUST THOUGHTS, KINDA A POEM,][BUT NOT REALLY, OKAY? HERE GOES]
I try to write, but no words come to mind. Just pointless ramblings that no one wants to hear. The seriousness of the matter doesnt matter. Hes leaving. What if I dont see him again? I know he loves me, he said it, and means it.
I can never even dream of hurting him. Hes dealt with so much of my shit. My crying, bitching, and listened everytime. Helping me along the way, keeps me here . Happy and now astray. I felt so much today between us, I didnt want it to end.
We spent all day together and not a single argument. I got burned and he put solarcaine on my back and gave me a gentle massage to help east the pain. You dont find a guy that will do that very often. He sat and helpd my hand while we slept.
He left, I cried. I dont know why. I thinks its because I may actually be in LOVE again. The feeling is amazing. and cant really be described. He knows that I am always here for him too. The thing is, I dont have a car yet, so uts harder for me to come to him.
ill listen to anything he has to say, help when advice is needed, give him a shoulder to cry one. I thought I heard a crack in his voice when I said I cried when he left. There is something between us. I can feel it. Something that hasnt been felt for ages. Its indescribable. every feeling i can think of. Love, passion, happiness, relaxation.. its all perfect.
I am myself around him. I dont act like someone Im not for him. All natural. I have to be for him to see how i really am.
*Sigh*
Love
that boi.
Happy 4th of July. [2356] 7/4/05
Music ~ Sugarcult ##Counting Stars##
Public - 12:34 PM - add eprops - add comments - edit it - email it
Something about him
He makes me smile
Something I havent done for a long while
I know there is a happier one
deep down inside
If its up to me to bring it out
I'll gladly accept that challenge
He seems to care too
Could it possibly happen?
I should be patient
Let time set its course
If hes really the one, I hope,
It will work out great
I dont need another broken heart
neither does he. We could do
this together
Truly see what its like to have
someone again. Pure Love,
Thats all we need.
June 22,2005 [1934]
Why is it that I cant cry
When im sad, but out of nowhere
I want to crawl into a ball and die?
Its so messed up! Im totally
backwards and I dont need to be
Its rotten and horrible.
I have those days I just dont want
to be here. I just want to go
elsewhere, out of this house
far the fuck away.
Can I clear this up? Proly not
He might be able to help
I just need to straighten shit out
Damn. Im all mixed up and
I have no idea why
My sister doesnt care,if she does,
she doesnt show it
Thank God for friends
or I wouldnt be able to
survive. This is way to confusing
for me. I'm 18, I dont need it.
6/24/05 [1747]
It happened. I opened up and
spilled it all to him
I guess i needed to vent. it seemed to help the stress built up inside. We clicked, i felt it.. I got promised things I didnt think would ever get promised to me
We can talk about anything. Love, life, my problems, his. I, wow, cant really describe it. I almost made a huge mistake and lost him. Thats where I cried. Just let the tears flow. The most I have in a long ass time. Its a mix of exhaustion,anger, sadness, depression, and more.
After he left, i took down all the old stuff. OLD LOVE. I dont need to think about that shit. he [andrew] is just a friend. He still loves me and if i still feel anything, it will have to wait til I am ready. not him.
Its great to know I can rebound to him[Matt] He will always listen. When he leaves for college, I have nick to go to next. Just as a friend, a person to talk to. It will do me good. I AM lucky after all, I guess. I know Matty, Laura, Nick care. Its just good to know
Its late, I need sleep. Yeah, its not a poem, but its how I feel. Dont like it? TOO DAMNED BAD! Dont read it next time. *chuckle* Wow. Nite
[105] 6/28/05
Fuked up again. No surprise
Im pretty sure hes disappointed
that I havent done anything
for the past couple days.
I cant help it. Im scared now.
I guess, I.. Im not used to it
Fuked up again
No surprise, really
always doing something wrong
not able to find the right
Dont Fuk Up
thats what i should remember
Ive done it once
Ill fuk up again
This shit is getting
me nowhere quick
Fuk it all, dood, this sux.
6/30/05 [2347]
These are to my matty. I <3 that boi. if you like, lemme know.