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Panda, just so you know i have not been drinking.
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I am asking myself today what has value? What inherently has value and some kind of moral worth to the human being? If the answer, as I both fear is true and yet pray is false, happens to be NOTHING, then why exist? Looking introspectively into my own beliefs I ask myself then, are the values and morals I have nothing more than what has been implanted into my brain by my family and surroundings? If I were raised somewhere else, would my beliefs and what makes me, well me, have become someone else? I cannot precisely recall where this quote comes from but it went along the lines, "I think, therefor I am". As I sit here searching inside the deepest recesses of my soul, I can both see and acknowledge the disparities, the flaws, the errors, the cravings to be something less than what I know instinctively is right. I let go the mortal world surrounding me and delve deep into the tiniest peice of my soul, and it is here that I find my peace, here where I just KNOW, with the fibers of my being, what is right and what is wrong. It is here that I find an answer that brings me both great joy and great sorrow. We all, as human beings, know instinctively what is valuable and moral. We know, because we are. It is what makes us hide our secrets, lie to those we love most, keep company with those who reflect our deepest sins. The path to doom is littered with help from those already on their way down their own destructive paths. They tempt you with their immorality. The fight, the one worth winning then, is the struggle to remain true to our pure and honest inclinations. To ignore the temptation to do what is easiest and do what is best. It is not an easy fight, and I have fallen and stumbled numerous times along the way. I can only hope, than in the end, when I look back, I can still say, YES! I am among the righteous, and look to my left and right and see more of my fellow man around me, more of those I love and trust around me, to say that I both helped and learned from them on my path to being what we all know is good. Don't get me wrong, I'm not spouting religious drivil, I am trying to have a better understanding of myself and my fellow man, because today my eyes were opened into how much a person can change. We don't really know what goes on in our fellow man's mind, and this scares me. I need to believe that somewhere, inside each and everyone of us, are the beliefs that make me proud to be the person I am and still capable of saying the human race is worth something.
ok, well, i'm done, sorry for being long winded, i needed to vent and think for a moment.
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I am asking myself today what has value? What inherently has value and some kind of moral worth to the human being? If the answer, as I both fear is true and yet pray is false, happens to be NOTHING, then why exist? Looking introspectively into my own beliefs I ask myself then, are the values and morals I have nothing more than what has been implanted into my brain by my family and surroundings? If I were raised somewhere else, would my beliefs and what makes me, well me, have become someone else? I cannot precisely recall where this quote comes from but it went along the lines, "I think, therefor I am". As I sit here searching inside the deepest recesses of my soul, I can both see and acknowledge the disparities, the flaws, the errors, the cravings to be something less than what I know instinctively is right. I let go the mortal world surrounding me and delve deep into the tiniest peice of my soul, and it is here that I find my peace, here where I just KNOW, with the fibers of my being, what is right and what is wrong. It is here that I find an answer that brings me both great joy and great sorrow. We all, as human beings, know instinctively what is valuable and moral. We know, because we are. It is what makes us hide our secrets, lie to those we love most, keep company with those who reflect our deepest sins. The path to doom is littered with help from those already on their way down their own destructive paths. They tempt you with their immorality. The fight, the one worth winning then, is the struggle to remain true to our pure and honest inclinations. To ignore the temptation to do what is easiest and do what is best. It is not an easy fight, and I have fallen and stumbled numerous times along the way. I can only hope, than in the end, when I look back, I can still say, YES! I am among the righteous, and look to my left and right and see more of my fellow man around me, more of those I love and trust around me, to say that I both helped and learned from them on my path to being what we all know is good. Don't get me wrong, I'm not spouting religious drivil, I am trying to have a better understanding of myself and my fellow man, because today my eyes were opened into how much a person can change. We don't really know what goes on in our fellow man's mind, and this scares me. I need to believe that somewhere, inside each and everyone of us, are the beliefs that make me proud to be the person I am and still capable of saying the human race is worth something.
ok, well, i'm done, sorry for being long winded, i needed to vent and think for a moment.