high

[juliettadreams]

i'm so high. my parents hate me because i'm high. they don't understand anything...i have no privacy... i hate life so much when it seems i have no control over it--it's so fucking frustrating. i love weezer. i love garth, but sometimes i worry. maybe that's because i'm paranoid because i'm a pothead addict loser. and i like to get high. they've never tried it. how do they know? they're so fucking frustratingly closeminded and they won't open their ears to anything i have to say--because they think i'm blinded by my addiction. dad can't do without at least 2 beers a night. so what if i can't go 2 days without smoking weed? that's my vice, you have yours. leave me alone about it. let it be, let it be. leave me to my own devices. i am me. I am me. I am ME. I AM ME. Not you are me. Not you can control me and mold me like clay. Fuck you! Fuck you and I hate you for trying to ruin my life. you've destroyed every last bit of privacy i had, and made me so ashamed to exist. I hate you for it and always will. Though I love my parents dearly. I wish you could just fucking accept me, let me be Jennifer who smokes weed and gets high and likes it. I can't fucking take it. Let me EXIST. Let me be by myself. i need to make my own decisions and, if need be, my own mistakes. i know it's not exactly a respectable thing to be like me and do as i do, smoking the evil ganja and all. but that's me and i do as i do, no matter the insulting comments from you. so Fuck you. Fuck You. I just want to open your old hardened minds to think in a more logical, truthful way... you don't understand because of what you were taught growing up and what the media feeds us. but now it's been proven that oh my gosh, maybe pot isn't really all that bad!!! :O but you're too old to hear the truth. mothers and fathers, please realize that your sons and your daughters are beyond your command! the old road is rapidly fading... so get out of the way if you can't lend your hand, cuz the times, they are a changing. i love bob dylan. i hate that i can't be accepted.
I thought you were supposed to love me no matter what?
Oh,....... okay.