Sweet misery ( you saw the beauty in everything, everything in me )

Jan 03, 2007 21:37

I was lost and you were found.
You seemed to stand on solid ground.
I was weak, and you were strong.
And me and my guitar, we strummed along.

Sweet misery you cause me.
That's what you called me.
Sweet misery you cause me.

I was blind, but oh how you could see.
You saw the beauty in everything, everything in me.
I would cry, and you would smile
You'd stay with me a little while.

Sweet misery you cause me.
That's what you called me.
Sweet misery you cause me.

And in my heart I see what you're doing to me.
And in my heart I see just how you wanted it to be,
Sweet misery.

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And for some reason I can't stop thinking about how things might've been - about the way you made me feel. In a world that seemed so dark, you were my light. You showed me that there was still good in the world, and you stayed with me, even if it was just for a little while. And I know I promised that I would be okay, but I miss you - I miss you so much. It's supposed to get easier, but it isn't. Nothing's easy, but that's life, isn't it? It's just when you were here, I had someone by my side. And now I'm not so sure - about anything. I want to do the right thing. I want to be that guiding light for someone - like you were for me. But I don't know if I can. I don't know if I'm strong enough on my own. Sometimes I don't even know how to get through the day, much less save someone else. I just wish you were here; I wish you were here to remind me of who I am.

At one point in my life, I wouldn't have needed that. I wouldn't have needed anyone. And then you showed me it was okay to get close to someone. And now you're gone, and I'm back to being alone. Now the world's a darker place. All the answers I thought I knew died with you, and I feel so alone - but that's not the worst part. I can stand the loneliness, but I feel so powerless. All the pain in the world, and I can't do a thing to stop it. I can't even help those I call my friends. Where did everything go so horribly wrong? Why did it happen to us? What am I supposed to do now?

I see you in him, you know. It's why I liked him from the start. Now - now I see something else. I see a good man, even if he doesn't. It reminds me of someone. It reminds me of myself before you came along - distant and lonely. Strong, but only because I had to be - because it was expected. If I could do for him what you did for me, two lives could be forever changed because of it. But then again we didn't get our happy ending, so who's to say that even if I serve as the thread that ties them together, they'll get theirs. Because life has a funny way of showing its gratitude. In the end, I'm just a girl - a broken little girl with no place to go.
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