And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Today was my first day at work. Dr. Sloan picked me as his intern for the day. I guess you can say he 'picked me.' There wasn't anyone left to choose from, so he didn't really have any other choice - unless he wanted to get his own coffee and deli sandwich. After that I spent most of my time in the pit doing sutures. I was complimented on how steady my hands were and how focused I was at the task at hand ( which normally is no big deal, but most interns don't stay for five hours straight ), and I made a couple of the patients smile. That's a good thing, right? All in all, the day wasn't uneventful and I got to do more than the interns that are assigned to Sloan usually get to do. I'm grateful for that. It definately could've gone a lot worse. I guess I really won't know until tomorrow to see if he'll pick me again. Or maybe the next day or the day after that . . . But in all fairness, Karev should get a shot. After all, I just got here. I don't expect to be bumped to the front of the line.
There's a lot more to Mark Sloan than meets the eye. Of course, no one would ever know it. He doesn't allow anyone to get that close - well, except for Addison Montgomery ( who's one of the few I haven't met or even caught a glimpse of ). But any guy that flies all the way across the country to be with the woman he loves? Can't be all that bad. Maybe my problem is setting my expectations too high. A surgeon and an intern, friends? Yeah right. The only way surgeons 'get along' with the interns is when they're in a relationship, and that was not where I was trying to go. I think enough women have gone there with Dr. Sloan. Maybe I'm just a wishful fool.
It could be for the best. If there really is a whole Dr. Shepherd verses Dr. Sloan battle going on, I might not want to put myself right in the middle of it. Meredith and I are best friends, and I love her. She's like a sister to me, and I wouldn't want to do anything to hurt or offend her or the man she loves so much. But I don't know Dr. Shepherd, and I came along way after any feud started. Can I really get in trouble for 'siding with the enemy?' But at this rate, it won't really be a problem. I was just trying to be nice. Some people just already have everything they need.
I also met Izzie and Alex today. Alex got called away on an assignment pretty quickly, but Izzie and I got to chat for a few minutes. She seems really friendly - and helpful. She gave me a few useful pointers. Pointers are something I can definately use. At least now I don't feel like such a stranger. So far things are going well. I had a minor setback when I got home, but I'll be okay. The past is the past - it's over, and I'm safe now. I just hate that even after so many years, he can still hurt me, you know? I know for a fact if it wasn't for my father, Dr. Sloan wouldn't intimidate me like he did initially. What I have to remember is to focus on the good and positive and overlook the bad. It's nothing personal, right? That's the hardest part. With me, it's always personal.
There's a lot more to Mark Sloan than meets the eye. Of course, no one would ever know it. He doesn't allow anyone to get that close - well, except for Addison Montgomery ( who's one of the few I haven't met or even caught a glimpse of ). But any guy that flies all the way across the country to be with the woman he loves? Can't be all that bad. Maybe my problem is setting my expectations too high. A surgeon and an intern, friends? Yeah right. The only way surgeons 'get along' with the interns is when they're in a relationship, and that was not where I was trying to go. I think enough women have gone there with Dr. Sloan. Maybe I'm just a wishful fool.
It could be for the best. If there really is a whole Dr. Shepherd verses Dr. Sloan battle going on, I might not want to put myself right in the middle of it. Meredith and I are best friends, and I love her. She's like a sister to me, and I wouldn't want to do anything to hurt or offend her or the man she loves so much. But I don't know Dr. Shepherd, and I came along way after any feud started. Can I really get in trouble for 'siding with the enemy?' But at this rate, it won't really be a problem. I was just trying to be nice. Some people just already have everything they need.
I also met Izzie and Alex today. Alex got called away on an assignment pretty quickly, but Izzie and I got to chat for a few minutes. She seems really friendly - and helpful. She gave me a few useful pointers. Pointers are something I can definately use. At least now I don't feel like such a stranger. So far things are going well. I had a minor setback when I got home, but I'll be okay. The past is the past - it's over, and I'm safe now. I just hate that even after so many years, he can still hurt me, you know? I know for a fact if it wasn't for my father, Dr. Sloan wouldn't intimidate me like he did initially. What I have to remember is to focus on the good and positive and overlook the bad. It's nothing personal, right? That's the hardest part. With me, it's always personal.