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Caution Disclaimer: I am currently in one of my self-pitying moods and will proceed accordingly. You should now consider yourself warned.
During these weeks I have off to study for my CA exam (the UFE, or Uniform Final Evaluation), I'm supposed to take the weekends off to recharge and regroup. I don't know, somehow...this past weekend I had both Friday and Monday off as well (because my study partner took a short trip to NYC over those days) and yet I feel more disheartened now than I did before the weekend, on Thursday.
It's just...every day of my long weekend, I did the exact same as I'd normally do if I had an evening off, say, or had a bit of time on my hands. But when you've got a 4-day break, that's hardly what you want to be doing: more of the same old crap. You know? But everyone else was busy or out of town (or both, in some cases) and even the current spate of movie releases isn't doing anything to pique my interest, and so I basically just stayed home all weekend -- not counting a couple of errands and a visit to my grandmother, anyway.
I don't know what I expect to accomplish by writing this all here or complaining again that my weekend was boring (Isolde and Kat have already heard these complaints), but...apparently, that hasn't stopped me.
Also, combine all of this with this: on the one hand I've got people telling me, "in the end, this is JUST an exam", but then on the other hand you've got my parents and the back of my own mind saying, "this is the biggest exam of your life...shouldn't you be doing something?" Arrrgh. We're a week into our 4-week study plan and I do not know anything. You won't believe me, though.
During these weeks I have off to study for my CA exam (the UFE, or Uniform Final Evaluation), I'm supposed to take the weekends off to recharge and regroup. I don't know, somehow...this past weekend I had both Friday and Monday off as well (because my study partner took a short trip to NYC over those days) and yet I feel more disheartened now than I did before the weekend, on Thursday.
It's just...every day of my long weekend, I did the exact same as I'd normally do if I had an evening off, say, or had a bit of time on my hands. But when you've got a 4-day break, that's hardly what you want to be doing: more of the same old crap. You know? But everyone else was busy or out of town (or both, in some cases) and even the current spate of movie releases isn't doing anything to pique my interest, and so I basically just stayed home all weekend -- not counting a couple of errands and a visit to my grandmother, anyway.
I don't know what I expect to accomplish by writing this all here or complaining again that my weekend was boring (Isolde and Kat have already heard these complaints), but...apparently, that hasn't stopped me.
Also, combine all of this with this: on the one hand I've got people telling me, "in the end, this is JUST an exam", but then on the other hand you've got my parents and the back of my own mind saying, "this is the biggest exam of your life...shouldn't you be doing something?" Arrrgh. We're a week into our 4-week study plan and I do not know anything. You won't believe me, though.