Ugh...

[julies_lj]

I've seriously never felt as low as I do right now. I'm filled with anxiety, depression, and boredom...and yet I feel as if there is so much emptiness inside of me. I thought it was filled but I guess I was wrong. Last night was really bad. I had a dream that i was crying to my brother about something..i don't know what and then I woke up and i had tears on my cheeks. And then for some weird reason that I don't know I just sat up in my bed and started crying...and crying...and i didn't know why. And I had no one to call because i didn't know who to call or what to tell them. And then for the rest of today I have been horribly depressed. My happiest moment today was school...and school was horrible. I've never felt like this before but i have this horrible pressure feeling on my chest...and sometimes its hard for me to breathe.

I truly feel like I'm in a bad state of depression.

And sorry for the rant but I had to type something before driving myself insane.