they must think we care;; but all i see is you. <3
You're where I belong
Like [red] on a rose.
<3
so on friday i went home for the pembroke vs. oakfield game. it was just a gorgeous fall evening. it was kinda nasty earlier...but it turned out to be a really nice day. i got home & went to my grandparents house, and then to my sister's apartment. but when i was on my way home, it just started pouring, but the sun was sooo bright! it was absolutely gorgeous. && there was a rainbow...it was so increadible. it was so bright & vibrant. it was so amazing. i just couldn't stop lauging & smiling, it's like i was overflowing with joy. it was weird. lol. but it's moments like those that i have to thank God for everything he's done in my life & what he's continuing to do. it's moments like that, where i'm so thankful and so happy to be alive. that had to be one of the most beautiful days of my life, just looking at God's creation...and seeing how amazing he truely is.
but the game went good. it was FREEEZING out!!! so i was already coming down with a cold, but the next morning i was 10 times worse. lol. but it was OA's homecoming, and we won!!! YEAAAH! i have a feeling our guys are going to go all th
e way this year---and that's so cool, but i wish we could have done that last year. oh well. i'm still proud of our guys this year. i got to see a lot of friends though at the game. it was fun. and i talked to b. sage a lot. haha. i've only met him once---and he acts like we;re best friends. but hes so funny. i saw elias!!! and marla, me & justina hung out after the game. we went to sportos, and elias came with us. and ryan & corey hubbard met us there. it was fun. then after that, marla & i rented the lake house...and she came over and watched it. it was pretty confusing. i still don't understand it, but whatever. lol. she slept over...and it was mad fun. i love her so much.
then saturday, i woke up really sick. && i tried to call in to work, but no luck. we were actually short handed. so i had to go in. i reallllly really didn't want to. so i took marla home & jumped on the truway in pembroke. annnnd i forgot my cell phone! i was so pissed! lol. so i worked with jeremy & mike. and it was actually kinda fun. but i was definately happy when 5:00 rolled around.
then i came back to my apartment & got ready to go to Jr. Miss in LeRoy. i was meeting Rachel there. it only took me about 20-25 minutes. not too bad. so i got there...and it was fun. it made me sad though...to be there-remembering how it was last year. it's just so weird how much can change in one year. ya know? one year ago, i had the best friends EVER...and now we don't even talk. Kaleigh was there though...and it was definately akward. she said hi to me though. but it made me want to cry seeing her. i miss her so much. i realllly really do. so i went to see Katie--and she did really good, but she didn't get anything. i felt bad. but i don't think she wanted anything though. so oh well. she still looked beautiful!! and i still envy her, because i always wanted to do Jr. miss.
so then i got home & i chatted with my mommy. i hadn't seen her in a while. cause when i was home on friday, she was gone on a woman's retreat for church. but she told me while she was there, she met Jon's mom. She said she's really nice and she was saying how happy she & his dad are that Jon found a nice christian girl to hang out with. so i'm really happy that his parents like me. they are so nice. i really hope it works out...it just seems so perfect.
and my mom did my laundry. lol. my mom is such a blessing in my life, i love my parents so much. but then i went online, and jon IMed me, i was so excited! lol. i miss him a lot. like A LOT. i guess he's worth the wait...and i know that the next time we see each other, it will be that much more exciting. lol. so i told him what his mom said-and he's like-i'm glad too. :-). awwww. haha. so i was hoping he would go with me to church the next morning-but he was going to his church. it's a good thing he didn't come to mine though, because i woke up on sunday SUPER sick. & if he would have come, i would have felt really really bad. i don't want to get him sick.
so sunday was good. i got to see christina!!! i love her so much. and it was fellowship meal after church, yay for food! haha. then i came home & took a nap. annnd then i just did homework the rest of the night && watched desparate housewives with mom and dad!! haha. i loove that show! although i was wishing i could have been with jon...
but really, the Lord has been helping me with not being so anxious to see him & to talk to him. i think it had been 2 days that we went without talking, and i didn't mind. it was ok. and i'm really glad that i can do that. because it seemed like for a while, that's all i wanted to do! and i realize that i don't NEED to talk to him. lol. The Lord is definately teaching me patients with this relationship. and i've learned that i just need to trust God with everything, every part of me. with all of my thoughts, all my needs && all my concerns. God knows exactly what i need, and he'll never let me down. I know that if things with Jon are going to work out, i need to trust God. because without him, i would have never met Jon. I'm so thankful the Lord has brought him into my life, i'm such a better person for knowing him.
so after i was done watching TV, i went out to Tops to go grocery shopping, i needed to pick up a few things, and that way-if i went that night, i didn't have to get up earlier the next morning to do it.
So monday, i got up & left for school. it was alright, nothing out of the ordinary. but i was really sick. all i could think about during class was going to sleep. i took 2 naps on monday. one after my micro class, and then one after my marketing class...till 6:00. then i got up and did some homework. i had a lot of HW to do. buut it was also the season premier of the bachelor...so me & the girls watched that. they also love it. haha. we were pretty pumped. annnd i was talking to Jonathan! yay. we've actually been talking a lot lately. and he's already talking about next year...so that can only mean good things right? lol. he's so awesome. i'm so lucky.
so tuesday, i was still sick. i had classes till 3. i did alright on my business test. i came back & relaxed till work at 5. i worked with Mike & Shawnna, till 9:30. i really didn't feel good. i just wanted to go home. but shawnna was there till later, so i got to leave right away instead of waiting till everything was done. so then i came back & did my homework. and guess who decided to talk to me, after almost 2 months? yeah, chris b. i couldn't believe it!!! and he's like why did you disappear after that one night? i was thinking to myself...are you serious!? he's the one who didn't call me. i wasn't going to do it this time. ya know? can't a guy ever call me? so i told him. i' m like you have a phone too. and i just felt like i was your side girl. and i finally realized that you & i will never be together. and i'm finally getting over you. but i do miss you. and he wants me to come see him @ college. but i don't know if i can. cause usually when i see him, i just like him all over again. and i don't want to do that. because i want to be with Jon. and i'm not ruining things with Jon, for some summer fling, who doesn't even care about me. ya know? i'll always have great memories of chris & i, and i'll always remember him, and how much i wanted to be with him, but i can't go back there. i know that he'll do the same thing to me AGAIN. do i want to do that for a 4th time in a row? no. i don't. so maybe i can go visit him, and we'll STRICTLY be friends. cause i miss hanging out with him. he;s so much fun. so we'll see...
this morning, i thought i was going to feel a lot better, but i wasn't so lucky. lol. i'm still sick.
it was POURING when i went to go to school this morning. annnd i couldn't find a parking spot, so i got another parking ticket, once again. so now i've gotten 3!!! that's $45 i could have spent on a new outfit. haha. but i guess it was just kind of a bad day. i woke up late, i looked terrible, i left for school late, couldn't find a parking spot, it was raining, i got a ticket...and so on. but it's ok. because i need to rejoice in my sufferings! so praise God that i'm sick & that i got a parking ticket. lol. i know that something great will come out of all of this. i just hope i get better soon-so i can hang out with jon. because if i'm not better...i'm not gunna see him. i don't want to get him sick. that would be reallllly really bad.
so now! i'm just hanging out till i have work at 5. i'm pretty sure i work with Amy tonight. so it shouldn't be too bad. i like Amy. she's cool.
so yeah. then i have to come home & do homework.
i just wish i didn't have school everyday! i need a break sometimes!!! haha.
sooo i'm pretty much out.
<3
isn't it weird how things can change so quickly, right before your eyes? how your whole life can change in just one day? isn't it weird how you can meet someone, who turns your whole world around? && you know that person was brought into your life for a reason? and you're so thankful they came into your life at that time, because without them, you would have caused yourself so much more [pain], thinking you could settle for less? isn't it great knowing that each day you wake up, is a new day to start over, to experience new things, to meet new people and to see the world in a different light? isn't it fun knowing that you have something to look forward to in the future, something you just can't wait for...but at the same time, you know it's going to be worth every minute you've waited? and you know that you would wait forever;; because after all, [forever isn't that long].<3