you're not always right. but this time...you are;;; i'm crazy about you.
Wait for the guy who calls you beautiful instead of hott, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly remindIng you of how much he cares, the one who turns to his friends and says, "thats her", and the one who tells you how he's the luckiest guy in the world to have you.
Ok. wow. i have lots to tell. it's been like two weeks.
first of all--my mom's test came back negative. so Praise God for that, i don't know what i would have done if it had really happend.
two weekends ago, i had all county chorus. it wasn't as good as other years, but it was still fun, and the concertwas amazing. but as soon as that ended, my mom & dad, and i, rushed to get to my cousin's wedding in oakfield, and we made it just in time for her to walk down the isle. that wedding reception was fun, even thoughthere was no dancing. i was a little disappointed, but i got to see lotsa old friends. I saw my good friend ericwho i havn't seen in two years, ever since he left for collge. so i was excited.after the reception at like 10:30, a whole group of us went over to cole waterson's house to play poker. it was so much fun. we were there till like 1am.
We had the bridesmaid shower for my cousin teri that next day. it went really good. i can't wait till her wedding, less than a month away!
i had my cheerleading banquet, and that was fun. I got MVP, yea baby. haha. i think ms. carroll was sooo happy to have it over with. you could tell she was stressed. i was sad. i did cry at the end, bc all the girls came up to me and were like we're gunna miss you & its just not guna be the same. so yeah. i cried. lol. i'm really gunna miss it...
st. patrick's day, i had no school, although i had to work 13 hours that day. soooo much fun. haha. these past few weekends i've been working non stop--literally.
i went to see the school play----murder by indecision--on the 18th. it was good & pretty funny. kal, cat, and jordan were in it, and plus i got extra credit from mr. schuler. lol. they did a really good job.
and since then i've just had the same old stuff, jazz band, marching band, church, work. things like that.
but lets go back to friday, because i remember that stuff. haha.
so friday, i got to leave school like 2minutes early for all county band. the little kids on the bus were sooo loud! icouldn't handle it. lol. we were late, as usual. it was in LeRoy, and i really didn't know waht to expect, bc i havn't been in an all county band in a while. friday was kinda boring. and the director was super weird. not gunna lie. lol. but i did get to sit next to noah seward! i was so excited! lol. and i got to see all my OA friends. seth, elias, noah, garth, katie!!, and other ppl from other schools. but when we got back at 7, i went and visited jonas & rachel at work. then i got home at like 8. went online & went to bed at 9.
so then saturday i had to get up at 630! i know right. lol. we had to be up to school at 8. we got there, actually on time, and it was sooo much better than the night b4. it was fun. bc i met b-sage, and he sat right in front of me playing alto, and he is sooo fricken hillarious. he was making me laugh the whole time. so yeah. the concert went well. better than i thought it was going to. and of course we got pictures with the hinkson cousin's after. lol. its a tradition. then, we had to rush home, because ihad to work at 5, at akron--with chris b. oh yay.
so i got home threw on my clothes and headed over there. well when i got there, it was swamped. i kinda felt bad. so i hurried up & helped him out. but he said it wasn't really busy till then anyway. it really wasn't akward at all. we had small talk at first, ya know, the usual. told him i want tickets to his musical. things like that. and i know he still cares about me, and remembers everthing we said to each other, bc as soon as we got in the back, he's like ijust wanna let you know that i got excepted into RIT. i'm like that's great! congrats. he wanted that sooo bad. and i said, see, i told you you'd get in. and he just had the biggest smile. i'm so proud of him. and then after like a half hour, he started telling me it was my fault that all this happend. i'm like waht!? i dont' think so. so we were kinda just slammin things back and forth at each other. so we're good now i guess. i dunno. as soon as i saw him, when i walked in that door, all my feelings rushed right back. and it sucks, bc he has a gf. ya know? and the hardest part of all of this is, i know he wants me back, but he or i, can't do anything about it. it kills me. god, i hate guys. but i'm like you messed all of this up for me bc now i don't have a prom date. he's like i'll still go with you. why wouldn't i? i'm like cause you have a gf! dah. and hes like so what. i wanna go w u. and he said he'd pay & everything. lol. so if i can't find anyone, i really think i'm gunna take him. even though he put me through all that crap, i know i'd have a good time with him. and there's no one else i'd rather go with.
so he was there till 7. which sucked, bc ihate being alone && i wanted to talk to him more. but. oh well. so i closed, and got out at like 10:10ish. headed home, went online & went to bed.
So today, i got up at 8. i was sooo tired. got ready, went to church, and then i had to work 12-5 at akron. then 5-10 at pembroke with fitch. akron was sooo dead. i went on a cleaning spree. it was insaine. and i did like half of chris' work for him, not bc it was him, but bc i was so bored. well when i was leaving akron, chris came in, bc he was the next shift. so 2 days in a row! lol. god, he looked so good. we talked for a few minutes, then i had to leave. work was super super slow. rachel came into see me! yay. i love her. fitch was in a super weird mood. i dunno what was up with him. but chris out of the blue texts me. it was weird...bc first of all, he never texts me first. EVER. and idunno. he hasn't in like 2 months. so yeah. he's like i'm soo tired. i didn't get any sleep last night, i dnno why. i'm like its bc you were thinking about me. and all i got back was "...". it's bc he knows i'm right. i know he still has feelings for me, and he's kicking himself now. i still can't believe he got a girlfriend within like 1 week of us not talking. that makes me so mad. and i'm like you never missed me? he's like, i never said that. so yeah. i know he misses me. ERR! this sucks big time. but you know what? i'd rather have him as a friend, than not have him at all. i just wish we could be together. i just don't want to live my life without him. sooo me & fitch got out at like 10: 15. i came home, and here i am. i was putting this off for sooo long.
but now, it's bed time for me. bc i have to wake up tomorrow at 5, bc i have math review at 6:30. yeah. it sucks.
ugh. i hate school.
and i miss chris b.
o.u.t.
<3
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And I've dropped out, I've burned up
I fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on
Remembered the things that you said
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your whole life
Ok. wow. i have lots to tell. it's been like two weeks.
first of all--my mom's test came back negative. so Praise God for that, i don't know what i would have done if it had really happend.
two weekends ago, i had all county chorus. it wasn't as good as other years, but it was still fun, and the concertwas amazing. but as soon as that ended, my mom & dad, and i, rushed to get to my cousin's wedding in oakfield, and we made it just in time for her to walk down the isle. that wedding reception was fun, even thoughthere was no dancing. i was a little disappointed, but i got to see lotsa old friends. I saw my good friend ericwho i havn't seen in two years, ever since he left for collge. so i was excited.after the reception at like 10:30, a whole group of us went over to cole waterson's house to play poker. it was so much fun. we were there till like 1am.
We had the bridesmaid shower for my cousin teri that next day. it went really good. i can't wait till her wedding, less than a month away!
i had my cheerleading banquet, and that was fun. I got MVP, yea baby. haha. i think ms. carroll was sooo happy to have it over with. you could tell she was stressed. i was sad. i did cry at the end, bc all the girls came up to me and were like we're gunna miss you & its just not guna be the same. so yeah. i cried. lol. i'm really gunna miss it...
st. patrick's day, i had no school, although i had to work 13 hours that day. soooo much fun. haha. these past few weekends i've been working non stop--literally.
i went to see the school play----murder by indecision--on the 18th. it was good & pretty funny. kal, cat, and jordan were in it, and plus i got extra credit from mr. schuler. lol. they did a really good job.
and since then i've just had the same old stuff, jazz band, marching band, church, work. things like that.
but lets go back to friday, because i remember that stuff. haha.
so friday, i got to leave school like 2minutes early for all county band. the little kids on the bus were sooo loud! icouldn't handle it. lol. we were late, as usual. it was in LeRoy, and i really didn't know waht to expect, bc i havn't been in an all county band in a while. friday was kinda boring. and the director was super weird. not gunna lie. lol. but i did get to sit next to noah seward! i was so excited! lol. and i got to see all my OA friends. seth, elias, noah, garth, katie!!, and other ppl from other schools. but when we got back at 7, i went and visited jonas & rachel at work. then i got home at like 8. went online & went to bed at 9.
so then saturday i had to get up at 630! i know right. lol. we had to be up to school at 8. we got there, actually on time, and it was sooo much better than the night b4. it was fun. bc i met b-sage, and he sat right in front of me playing alto, and he is sooo fricken hillarious. he was making me laugh the whole time. so yeah. the concert went well. better than i thought it was going to. and of course we got pictures with the hinkson cousin's after. lol. its a tradition. then, we had to rush home, because ihad to work at 5, at akron--with chris b. oh yay.
so i got home threw on my clothes and headed over there. well when i got there, it was swamped. i kinda felt bad. so i hurried up & helped him out. but he said it wasn't really busy till then anyway. it really wasn't akward at all. we had small talk at first, ya know, the usual. told him i want tickets to his musical. things like that. and i know he still cares about me, and remembers everthing we said to each other, bc as soon as we got in the back, he's like ijust wanna let you know that i got excepted into RIT. i'm like that's great! congrats. he wanted that sooo bad. and i said, see, i told you you'd get in. and he just had the biggest smile. i'm so proud of him. and then after like a half hour, he started telling me it was my fault that all this happend. i'm like waht!? i dont' think so. so we were kinda just slammin things back and forth at each other. so we're good now i guess. i dunno. as soon as i saw him, when i walked in that door, all my feelings rushed right back. and it sucks, bc he has a gf. ya know? and the hardest part of all of this is, i know he wants me back, but he or i, can't do anything about it. it kills me. god, i hate guys. but i'm like you messed all of this up for me bc now i don't have a prom date. he's like i'll still go with you. why wouldn't i? i'm like cause you have a gf! dah. and hes like so what. i wanna go w u. and he said he'd pay & everything. lol. so if i can't find anyone, i really think i'm gunna take him. even though he put me through all that crap, i know i'd have a good time with him. and there's no one else i'd rather go with.
so he was there till 7. which sucked, bc ihate being alone && i wanted to talk to him more. but. oh well. so i closed, and got out at like 10:10ish. headed home, went online & went to bed.
So today, i got up at 8. i was sooo tired. got ready, went to church, and then i had to work 12-5 at akron. then 5-10 at pembroke with fitch. akron was sooo dead. i went on a cleaning spree. it was insaine. and i did like half of chris' work for him, not bc it was him, but bc i was so bored. well when i was leaving akron, chris came in, bc he was the next shift. so 2 days in a row! lol. god, he looked so good. we talked for a few minutes, then i had to leave. work was super super slow. rachel came into see me! yay. i love her. fitch was in a super weird mood. i dunno what was up with him. but chris out of the blue texts me. it was weird...bc first of all, he never texts me first. EVER. and idunno. he hasn't in like 2 months. so yeah. he's like i'm soo tired. i didn't get any sleep last night, i dnno why. i'm like its bc you were thinking about me. and all i got back was "...". it's bc he knows i'm right. i know he still has feelings for me, and he's kicking himself now. i still can't believe he got a girlfriend within like 1 week of us not talking. that makes me so mad. and i'm like you never missed me? he's like, i never said that. so yeah. i know he misses me. ERR! this sucks big time. but you know what? i'd rather have him as a friend, than not have him at all. i just wish we could be together. i just don't want to live my life without him. sooo me & fitch got out at like 10: 15. i came home, and here i am. i was putting this off for sooo long.
but now, it's bed time for me. bc i have to wake up tomorrow at 5, bc i have math review at 6:30. yeah. it sucks.
ugh. i hate school.
and i miss chris b.
o.u.t.
<3
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And I've dropped out, I've burned up
I fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on
Remembered the things that you said
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your whole life