nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it.
lots to tell:
so friday i ran some errands in the morning. when i got home there was a message on my answering machine from my chorus teacher saying congrats-i got into sr. high area all state chorus. and i was pretty upset. you see---it should be a good thing...i should be happy.---but i'm not--bc thats the same exact weekend of the sr trip to nyc. and i already paid to go....so if i can't find someone to take my place--then i can't go to area all state. but i wanna go. so i was really upset that morning. but then kal and i went to the galleria at 1ish....it was so much fun! i love kaleigh fisher soooo much....it's crazy. we got our presnts and all that good stuff for the banquet and brainstormed ideas for presents for the coaches...we realized we shoulda done that a lot sooner. we took a coffee/pretzel break--bc we had been working so hard. lol. and we saw ben there---it was kinda weird. he looked half asleep. we had a very nice chat on the way home. and it was good for me--bc i've been needing to talk to someone for quite sometime...i mean outloud--not online. like me actually saying the words. so then we had to be up to school at 5:00 for the bus...to marcus whitman for the football sectional game. it was supposed to take an hour and 30 mintues to get there---but we got lost--so it was about 2 hrs. but it was fun. i love my cheer girls!!!! we took lotsa pictures so we could remember that bus ride forever. ha. so we got there---and took a bathroom break. we missed the first quarter...but that was ok bc it was fricken freezing out. but it was fun. i didn't want the guys to win--but when i started geting into the game---i kinda wanted them to...just bc it was my last game and i know how much the guys wanted to win it. it was actually i pretty good game...but we lost 28-6. all the sr. guys were crying--but me and kal wanted to have a party. lol. i still can't believe the football season is over. so one down--one to go. we got home about 11. this was a break-through night for me. ok ready for this...? this was the first night in 2 months that i have not cried myself to sleep. it was a good night for me. i feel that i'm making progress--even if you all think i'm crazy. (yet i still miss him).
sunday i had church...and i was pretty tired-so i didn't go to sunday school. i'm a rebel--i know. but it was actually good...i really do love church. then after i went home, ate, took a nap. then i had work 4-10--at first with katie-then christy. it was fun. but sometimes i really hate work. i talked to chris for a while on the phone...bc i was pretty bored. i was done w all my stuff at 9--and christy's friend zach came in to see us. i got home and went to BED.
so today was alright. it was freezing in school--so thanks to shane savage for letting me wear his sweatshirt all day. i was trying to find someone to take my spot for the sr. trip. bc i've decided i wanna go to area-all state. i went to nyc last year...and i know it's my sr. trip..but i'll have other chances to travel---but area-all state only comes once. it's a big deal--and super hard to get into it. and i love singing more than anything else. so thats what i've decided to do. even though i wish i could still go to nyc with kal and cat...but i know they'll still have a good time w/ out me. so anyway-kal, me, missy and justina went to subway after school...then we had cheer practice 3-4:30. it was alright. sarah was sick--but she did end up coming in later. i cant' believe competition is on sunday...i'm actually kinda scared. i dunno. i don't think we're gunnna do great. oh well. i know it's still gunna be a good experience. so then i took caryn home(happy birthday)-i took a nap...decided not to go to my internship today. bc i didn't feel like it. so then my mom and i went out to batavia to walmart and such to get presents for all the girls and coaches for the banquet tomorrow. it's gunna be fun--and i can't wait.
its bed time for me.
i'll talk to ya'll later.
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Though it was awhile ago
I still can recall
That moment's all ready
And waiting to fall
Keep thinking back in time
Remembering when
You captured my heart
Over and over again
it's getting better all the time.
::::sigh:::::