my lowest point
Sunday
was mine and Chris' three month anniversary. He's been working a
lot and we hadn't been spending a lot of time together. I didn't
think too much of it. He'll be done working by the end of this
month, so I assumed that once he was done working at the haunted house,
we'd spend more time together. Boy was I wrong.
On Monday, Chris sends me a message saying that "We need to talk." I figured something happened with his family. I told him that I missed him and that he could call (it was late). So he tells me that it's more serious than just not spending enough time together.. he eventually broke up with me over the phone. I go into absolute hysterics. Bawling my eyes out. Shaking. Feeling absolutely worthless. So I tell him that I need a while to compose myself, but I'd call him back. Called Lora crying.. she said to call him and tell him to be man enough to break up with me in person. So I call him back and tell him that I wanted to come over so we could talk.
He was really hesitant about letting me come over, but I promised him I wouldn't cry. So I get to his house (I had to pull over twice on the way there .. i was crying so much I couldn't see), and didn't say anything to him. On Sunday I had printed out a bunch of quotes for him saying how much I loved him and then a letter I wrote to him saying how much I loved him and wanted to be with him. I gave him both of those to read. All he could say was I'm sorry.
About an hour later, he is back to crying and I'm just holding onto him like a little kid. I had to know a few things. So I asked him if it was worth being with me.. if his parents liked me.. if I was different than his ex girlfriend.. if he was sure he didn't feel anything towards me.. and then I asked him if I'd always have a special place in his heart because he'd always have one in mine. He broke like glass. Got a tissue and just started bawling. I told him that it wouldn't hurt like this if he didn't still love me.
It broke my heart what he said next. He told me that he didn't think that I missed him anymore or that I loved him and he didn't want to keep me in a relationship that I wasn't 100% happy in. So I told him that we could work through this and he took me back.
That night I stayed at his house and then Tuesday I skipped my morning class so I could sleep in (I had been up until like 3am). It was soo nice to have things back to normal.
That has to have been my lowest point. I didn't even have an idea what to do. BUT, everything is fixed now. I'm spending so much more time with him and it's amazing. AHH.. love.
"When a guy is in the position to sweep you off your feet, REMEMBER: he's also in the position to drop you on your ass!"
* julie
On Monday, Chris sends me a message saying that "We need to talk." I figured something happened with his family. I told him that I missed him and that he could call (it was late). So he tells me that it's more serious than just not spending enough time together.. he eventually broke up with me over the phone. I go into absolute hysterics. Bawling my eyes out. Shaking. Feeling absolutely worthless. So I tell him that I need a while to compose myself, but I'd call him back. Called Lora crying.. she said to call him and tell him to be man enough to break up with me in person. So I call him back and tell him that I wanted to come over so we could talk.
He was really hesitant about letting me come over, but I promised him I wouldn't cry. So I get to his house (I had to pull over twice on the way there .. i was crying so much I couldn't see), and didn't say anything to him. On Sunday I had printed out a bunch of quotes for him saying how much I loved him and then a letter I wrote to him saying how much I loved him and wanted to be with him. I gave him both of those to read. All he could say was I'm sorry.
About an hour later, he is back to crying and I'm just holding onto him like a little kid. I had to know a few things. So I asked him if it was worth being with me.. if his parents liked me.. if I was different than his ex girlfriend.. if he was sure he didn't feel anything towards me.. and then I asked him if I'd always have a special place in his heart because he'd always have one in mine. He broke like glass. Got a tissue and just started bawling. I told him that it wouldn't hurt like this if he didn't still love me.
It broke my heart what he said next. He told me that he didn't think that I missed him anymore or that I loved him and he didn't want to keep me in a relationship that I wasn't 100% happy in. So I told him that we could work through this and he took me back.
That night I stayed at his house and then Tuesday I skipped my morning class so I could sleep in (I had been up until like 3am). It was soo nice to have things back to normal.
That has to have been my lowest point. I didn't even have an idea what to do. BUT, everything is fixed now. I'm spending so much more time with him and it's amazing. AHH.. love.
"When a guy is in the position to sweep you off your feet, REMEMBER: he's also in the position to drop you on your ass!"
* julie