motherfuckers at ORL
the bitches at the office of resident life will not let me out of my dorming contract yet. i fucking cannot believe these people. i'm so depressed and fucking unhappy here. you would think that would be enough for anyone to say, "yes, please find other housing arrangements so that you don't feel so miserable. that is not what we want for you. we want you to be happy."
BUT NO! the fact that i'm depressed and miserable and suffering in school isn't enough for them to let me leave. they just suggested that i change roommates. that's NOT WHAT I FUCKING SUBMITTED A REQUEST FORM FOR you sons of bitches.
now that i've let an ounce of my frustration out, i would like to make this general announcement: i had a dream about mandy last night. i walked up on her playing with lawhon's kids... sam ran up and gave me a big hug (even though i've never actually met his children in reality). mandy looked up from playing with sam's younger brother and she smiled when she saw me. at one point, we stopped playing with the kids and they ran off together. i sat down. she sat down next to me and put her arm around me. i turned to her and started to cry. i held her close, and she held me too. i sobbed. later she asked if we could lay down together. when i went to sleep the day that i found out she had gone, i had a dream that we were laying down together then, too. i'm not sure what it means. i just wish i could see her again and remind her that she is loved. i'll settle for the dream for now.
BUT NO! the fact that i'm depressed and miserable and suffering in school isn't enough for them to let me leave. they just suggested that i change roommates. that's NOT WHAT I FUCKING SUBMITTED A REQUEST FORM FOR you sons of bitches.
now that i've let an ounce of my frustration out, i would like to make this general announcement: i had a dream about mandy last night. i walked up on her playing with lawhon's kids... sam ran up and gave me a big hug (even though i've never actually met his children in reality). mandy looked up from playing with sam's younger brother and she smiled when she saw me. at one point, we stopped playing with the kids and they ran off together. i sat down. she sat down next to me and put her arm around me. i turned to her and started to cry. i held her close, and she held me too. i sobbed. later she asked if we could lay down together. when i went to sleep the day that i found out she had gone, i had a dream that we were laying down together then, too. i'm not sure what it means. i just wish i could see her again and remind her that she is loved. i'll settle for the dream for now.