And it seems like I am affraid.
I arrived not to long ago, The place isn't as bad as I expected. It different, It has character. It might smell a little different but thats okay, It's nice. I am laying here with Dexter not being able to sleep because I am affraid of something, But what? I don't know.
It seems like she doesn't want to open up but honestly, She's been apart of our family for well over 8 months. I wish she would talk to me more, It's always so quite and bare. Dull and dry. I'm affraid she won't like me for who I am if I talk, And therefore judge my brother by me. She's a nice person but I wish she didn't come off as so shy and snooty to me. Soon though, She'll get better. I really hope & pray. Things are awkward, I know how it is to meet the parents, You have to be so nice and fake or something..
I feel like I am so far away from home that I can't catch my breathe because it seems like I am never going home. Why does this happen to me every single time I walk out my front door? It seems like if I do not have an entire game plan, I get scared. I don't know what time I am going home tomorrow, and that scares me. Why? Because I have this parental insisnt that is ruling my life and I am begining to hate it.
I missed one of my bestfriends birthdays tonight, I feel like complete and uter crap about it. I hope she knows she means the world to me and that I didn't do it on purpose. I'm going to make up for it, I know I am.
Lately things have been rough and I don't know why, I've been shunning out more than just the important people too me, But the entire world. I'm trying to better myself through this, so if you feel like I am bitterly attacking you, I am deeply sorry. Help me through this.
Tomorrow night I am hanging out with an old bestfriend whom I haven't hung out with in two years. We just started talking over the past week. I missed her every day more than anyone could ever imagine. She meant the world to me. Together nothing else mattered. I really hope that goes back into effect.
Why do I consistanly get made fun of for who I am? Does it matter that I knitt? Or that I wear leggings with my pink polka dotted skirt? Or do you think I look funny because I wore a srunchy in my hair when they are out of style. Why do you point and laugh because I'd rather hang out with my mom than you on a Friday night? You snicker behind my back because I am not keeping up on the latest trends, or that my family doesn't have a lot of money, or maybe even that I chose not to be your friend. Well my friends, sticks and stones may break my bones, But your words will never hurt me. I've built such a strong shield to prevent myself from this, Continue your laughter and gossip, I'm ready to take this on, What hurts, ONLY MAKES ME STRONGER.
I just want to be me.
I wish you'd stop copying me.
It seems like she doesn't want to open up but honestly, She's been apart of our family for well over 8 months. I wish she would talk to me more, It's always so quite and bare. Dull and dry. I'm affraid she won't like me for who I am if I talk, And therefore judge my brother by me. She's a nice person but I wish she didn't come off as so shy and snooty to me. Soon though, She'll get better. I really hope & pray. Things are awkward, I know how it is to meet the parents, You have to be so nice and fake or something..
I feel like I am so far away from home that I can't catch my breathe because it seems like I am never going home. Why does this happen to me every single time I walk out my front door? It seems like if I do not have an entire game plan, I get scared. I don't know what time I am going home tomorrow, and that scares me. Why? Because I have this parental insisnt that is ruling my life and I am begining to hate it.
I missed one of my bestfriends birthdays tonight, I feel like complete and uter crap about it. I hope she knows she means the world to me and that I didn't do it on purpose. I'm going to make up for it, I know I am.
Lately things have been rough and I don't know why, I've been shunning out more than just the important people too me, But the entire world. I'm trying to better myself through this, so if you feel like I am bitterly attacking you, I am deeply sorry. Help me through this.
Tomorrow night I am hanging out with an old bestfriend whom I haven't hung out with in two years. We just started talking over the past week. I missed her every day more than anyone could ever imagine. She meant the world to me. Together nothing else mattered. I really hope that goes back into effect.
Why do I consistanly get made fun of for who I am? Does it matter that I knitt? Or that I wear leggings with my pink polka dotted skirt? Or do you think I look funny because I wore a srunchy in my hair when they are out of style. Why do you point and laugh because I'd rather hang out with my mom than you on a Friday night? You snicker behind my back because I am not keeping up on the latest trends, or that my family doesn't have a lot of money, or maybe even that I chose not to be your friend. Well my friends, sticks and stones may break my bones, But your words will never hurt me. I've built such a strong shield to prevent myself from this, Continue your laughter and gossip, I'm ready to take this on, What hurts, ONLY MAKES ME STRONGER.
I just want to be me.
I wish you'd stop copying me.