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Have you ever wished that you could wake up from a nightmare and then realized that you weren't asleep?
Have you ever been utterly exhausted, and yet wide-awake?
Have you ever needed to cry, but no tears will fall? and you just sit there with this sickening feeling of sadness, but your eyes won't cooperate? and all you want is to have the relief that crying gives you...that escape...but, it's gone? because you seem to be losing your ability to feel?
Have you ever been terrified of yourself?
Have you ever been awake at 3:00AM not because you chose to, but because your eyes won't close for more than 30 seconds?
Have you ever wanted to run around screaming until you lost your breath or your voice or maybe both?
or maybe just run...run as far away from everything as you possibly could until you actually want to go back to what you left behind?
Have you ever not known what you want?
Have you ever been utterly exhausted, and yet wide-awake?
Have you ever needed to cry, but no tears will fall? and you just sit there with this sickening feeling of sadness, but your eyes won't cooperate? and all you want is to have the relief that crying gives you...that escape...but, it's gone? because you seem to be losing your ability to feel?
Have you ever been terrified of yourself?
Have you ever been awake at 3:00AM not because you chose to, but because your eyes won't close for more than 30 seconds?
Have you ever wanted to run around screaming until you lost your breath or your voice or maybe both?
or maybe just run...run as far away from everything as you possibly could until you actually want to go back to what you left behind?
Have you ever not known what you want?