Apology
Now that I am a little calmer I would like to make an apology...not necessarily for the rant, but I know for some of you you have probably seen me post "ads" for commissions a handful of times across different art archives and and LJ communities. (And twice here alone.) I'm sorry about that, don't read anything too deep into it, other than I'm a scared person watching the time in which either a) I can get hired or b) I could get a couple commissions to cover my end-of-the-month bill and am getting desperate wondering "wait FC was on what if people didn't when I posted x? Or x? Well dA was ineffective as always I better try my luck with x."
Yeah, desperation overall.
Also, I wish I can walk out of the room once my parents start talking about the state of the economy. I know it's bad, but the degree of bad they make it out to be is nothing short of ridiculous and often makes me wonder if they believe I can even get another job because MY FATHER WITH A DEGREE AND A REALLY NICE JOB RIGHT NOW feels like if he is forced to find another job he is not going to have as easy a time as some people would think people with computer engineering degrees would think they would have. (And there is some truth to this-- Even back when we moved here in 2003, when things weren't anywhere near as bad in the US money-wise, there was a six month period in which he could not find a job despite the fact he got his degree from college this city makes the biggest deal of [whether it deserves it or not is another story.])
*sigh* Just put up with me for a bit, okee? I need to lay down I love this SPAAAAAAAAACE HEAAAAAATER but it dries out the air in here like crazy and it gives me a headache...too bad we really NEED the thing...
And seriously I'm just feeling so out of it I may just get the new DVD-R in and watch the Key to Time series all night I just feel that despondent.
Yeah, desperation overall.
Also, I wish I can walk out of the room once my parents start talking about the state of the economy. I know it's bad, but the degree of bad they make it out to be is nothing short of ridiculous and often makes me wonder if they believe I can even get another job because MY FATHER WITH A DEGREE AND A REALLY NICE JOB RIGHT NOW feels like if he is forced to find another job he is not going to have as easy a time as some people would think people with computer engineering degrees would think they would have. (And there is some truth to this-- Even back when we moved here in 2003, when things weren't anywhere near as bad in the US money-wise, there was a six month period in which he could not find a job despite the fact he got his degree from college this city makes the biggest deal of [whether it deserves it or not is another story.])
*sigh* Just put up with me for a bit, okee? I need to lay down I love this SPAAAAAAAAACE HEAAAAAATER but it dries out the air in here like crazy and it gives me a headache...too bad we really NEED the thing...
And seriously I'm just feeling so out of it I may just get the new DVD-R in and watch the Key to Time series all night I just feel that despondent.