I pissed it all away.

[julia_love_much]

I want to sleep for years.

I've been given everything. A home. A love. A job. A phone. A computer. You name it, I've held it.
I've pissed it all away.

The one person whom I love more than anything in the world, I have completely destroyed.
I am a grenade. I pulled the pin and exploded, hurting everything and everyone around me.
I do not deserve the breath in my lungs.

I have been selfish.
I have lied.
I have cheated those I love out of the love they deserve.

I have been given a wonderful life and I have pissed it all away.