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I know that it has definitely been a while since I have been online. It is just that there are so many things going on in my life right now and I have had barely enough time to sit down and rest (literally). This is going to be quick...well, I plan on it being so.
The last time I was here I do not know, but I have been working in summer camp with the children and that has been good overall. I really enjoy it. Camp is over this Friday, so I really need to find a job by then or shortly thereafter. I have a check that needs to be cashed but it has to wait.
My family moved to a new apartment closer to the 5 train station on GunHill. I now live in the projects on Adee Avenue. No comment. Well, at least I have wireless service here. My stuff is not all here and as I type my mother is getting rid of the rest of my stuff. No comment. Let's just say my clothes were "accidentally" thrown away. I do not know if it really was an accident, but now I have no fall & winter wardrobe. But, in all things, God is still God and He will make a way for me.
I went to Maryland (D.C. to be exact) and Tennessee by car last weekend on a mission with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. That was enjoyable and an awesome time for ministry for those in the south. I finally told one of my friends that I liked him and I felt so good after I did. We are going to be really great friends above all. It's always "friends first" in my book.
I am losing weight. I am not exactly sure how much I weigh now, but I dropped one dress size already. If I keep it up I can lose 5 or so pounds by the time school starts. I am excited about that.
Some aspects of my life are looking up while others are only worsening. However, I am only leaning on God because He is the only thing I really have. I once thought that I had family to back me up and be there for me when no one else would, but I thought wrong. The Bible says, "When thy father and thy mother forsake thee, then the Lord will pick you up." I can truly say that that is true. How is it that my family, my own BLOOD treats me worse that the dirt under their shoes and my friends and even TOTAL STRANGERS embrace me and treat me like royalty? That just doesn't make sense. My mind cannot even fathom or grasp that at all.
My relationships with my mother and grandmother are only getting worse, and honestly, I don't even care any more at this point. It hurts too much. I am too broken to try anymore. Nope. I won't allow it. Why should I take part in things that hurt me? And they wonder why I don't talk to them unless I have to.
Anyway, I have to go now.
Pray to Jesus for me. I need a miracle.
The last time I was here I do not know, but I have been working in summer camp with the children and that has been good overall. I really enjoy it. Camp is over this Friday, so I really need to find a job by then or shortly thereafter. I have a check that needs to be cashed but it has to wait.
My family moved to a new apartment closer to the 5 train station on GunHill. I now live in the projects on Adee Avenue. No comment. Well, at least I have wireless service here. My stuff is not all here and as I type my mother is getting rid of the rest of my stuff. No comment. Let's just say my clothes were "accidentally" thrown away. I do not know if it really was an accident, but now I have no fall & winter wardrobe. But, in all things, God is still God and He will make a way for me.
I went to Maryland (D.C. to be exact) and Tennessee by car last weekend on a mission with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. That was enjoyable and an awesome time for ministry for those in the south. I finally told one of my friends that I liked him and I felt so good after I did. We are going to be really great friends above all. It's always "friends first" in my book.
I am losing weight. I am not exactly sure how much I weigh now, but I dropped one dress size already. If I keep it up I can lose 5 or so pounds by the time school starts. I am excited about that.
Some aspects of my life are looking up while others are only worsening. However, I am only leaning on God because He is the only thing I really have. I once thought that I had family to back me up and be there for me when no one else would, but I thought wrong. The Bible says, "When thy father and thy mother forsake thee, then the Lord will pick you up." I can truly say that that is true. How is it that my family, my own BLOOD treats me worse that the dirt under their shoes and my friends and even TOTAL STRANGERS embrace me and treat me like royalty? That just doesn't make sense. My mind cannot even fathom or grasp that at all.
My relationships with my mother and grandmother are only getting worse, and honestly, I don't even care any more at this point. It hurts too much. I am too broken to try anymore. Nope. I won't allow it. Why should I take part in things that hurt me? And they wonder why I don't talk to them unless I have to.
Anyway, I have to go now.
Pray to Jesus for me. I need a miracle.