Am I a dense mofo or what?
SOO, I guess I'm just one of the worst people on the earth right now. I suck at being a friend so no one should ever talk to me anymore EVER. I realize I may be being hypocritical in this situation because I have sometimes felt jealous or hurt by people when they ditch me to hang out with other people without me or I feel like they're talking about me behind my back, yet I often try to confront the situation.
Most of the time if I have a problem with somebody I try to bring it up to them in a civilzed fashion to inform them of their destructive behavior towards me... yet it has become clear to me recently that SOME PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE.
The last thing I want to do is be a bitch. I know how it feels to be shit on and it is the last feeling I would ever want to subject another person to. The only reason I would ever want to intentionally hurt somebody is if they were being malicious towards me or someone I loved FIRST... I have a tendency to think that my true friends would not do this, so logically, i would NOT want to do it to them. Maybe it's too much to ask for people to tell me when I'm being a total douchebag and i don't realize it to my face... yeah, I'm pretty sure that my expectations are too high... whatever, I guess I'll just continue existing in my socially retarded state of being and wind up living in Arkansas with my 50 cats sooner than I thought.
Either way, i think everything is cool and figured out now again, but I just wanted to vent my frustrations to you, oh endless internet
On a happier note, I DID have a pretty awesome weekend which in part can be attributed to the fact that we most of the people who've had a problem with me finally told me what the hell was WRONG and we all had a good time... and I got drunk and had a good time in general :-) but who wants to hear about that.......not me anyway :-)
Now time to write that philosophy paper... (yeah, like that's gonna happen, ha) :-\
PS: If you read this you are not allowed to take any offense or cause ANOTHER stint of drama, if anything it's just a reminder to myself to NOT be a bitch anymore... thank you
Most of the time if I have a problem with somebody I try to bring it up to them in a civilzed fashion to inform them of their destructive behavior towards me... yet it has become clear to me recently that SOME PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE.
The last thing I want to do is be a bitch. I know how it feels to be shit on and it is the last feeling I would ever want to subject another person to. The only reason I would ever want to intentionally hurt somebody is if they were being malicious towards me or someone I loved FIRST... I have a tendency to think that my true friends would not do this, so logically, i would NOT want to do it to them. Maybe it's too much to ask for people to tell me when I'm being a total douchebag and i don't realize it to my face... yeah, I'm pretty sure that my expectations are too high... whatever, I guess I'll just continue existing in my socially retarded state of being and wind up living in Arkansas with my 50 cats sooner than I thought.
Either way, i think everything is cool and figured out now again, but I just wanted to vent my frustrations to you, oh endless internet
On a happier note, I DID have a pretty awesome weekend which in part can be attributed to the fact that we most of the people who've had a problem with me finally told me what the hell was WRONG and we all had a good time... and I got drunk and had a good time in general :-) but who wants to hear about that.......not me anyway :-)
Now time to write that philosophy paper... (yeah, like that's gonna happen, ha) :-\
PS: If you read this you are not allowed to take any offense or cause ANOTHER stint of drama, if anything it's just a reminder to myself to NOT be a bitch anymore... thank you