Tornado brain--- round and round we go
Dont you hate it when people cant decide if they hate you or like you so they go all skitzo and do both on a monthly basis...
Did palm beach yesterday-- it was funn especially when outside of the breakers im picking up a basketball and shoot'n hoops in flip-flops and a skirt-- then some guy joins in and he played with his girlfriend's purse in his hand-- so my handy cap was the skirt, his the purse-- it was funn and hillarious.
Trying to flush out whatever tension inside its causing me to be bitchy mc. bitchfuck--- i think its one of those endless circle things-- you hate it so it makes you more cynical which makes you hate you more which makes you more cynical... w.e thought and frustration i gotta get out.. im think'n thats why my stomachs flippn out lately-- cuz im all stressed and bitchy and tense.. guess its the anticipation of school.. or that i cant really read these books.. let alone any books.. if its not perfect i flip... really gotta stop that shytt..
just attacked my face with my claws.. god dammit now im gunna be a puffer fish tommorrow full of pimples once again the perfectionalist wanting to get rid of all these pimples GHAD..
Crappy feeling day i must say...
Got to chill with glory making fun of the belen asses stumble down the street.. hehe best entertainment of life.
fixed up my comps musica and what not.. had to listen to EVERY single song to figure out what i wanted on my ipod or not.. playlists-- on and on... i have sooo many beatles songs running through my head right now
LAUREN YOU LEFT YOUR WALLET HERE!!!
Got my old new soccer ball that was broken at first.. my mom exchanged it YAY. I really need to be more agreeable with her... i tend to exaust my tension out at her which is totally wrong-- i guess i jsut think that shes a security..which is stupid cuz wut runs thru my thick ass head is "swimming was your outlet for everything now you dont have an outlet so just spark out everywhere cuz you have nothing to go to" bla bla bla SHUT UP BRAIN and TURN ON COMMON SENSE, i got the will power from it and the wrecked shoulders but now its time to enjoy the things and people that it was keeping me from in those insane hours of escaping what i needed to solve.
yea yea you dont want to hear this-- if i write down my blurbs tho it kinda helps me put the bits and pieces together.. or it just confuses me more...
kk either way im gunna go make a calander on my comp with all my flippn apts.. organize to satisfy..
Did palm beach yesterday-- it was funn especially when outside of the breakers im picking up a basketball and shoot'n hoops in flip-flops and a skirt-- then some guy joins in and he played with his girlfriend's purse in his hand-- so my handy cap was the skirt, his the purse-- it was funn and hillarious.
Trying to flush out whatever tension inside its causing me to be bitchy mc. bitchfuck--- i think its one of those endless circle things-- you hate it so it makes you more cynical which makes you hate you more which makes you more cynical... w.e thought and frustration i gotta get out.. im think'n thats why my stomachs flippn out lately-- cuz im all stressed and bitchy and tense.. guess its the anticipation of school.. or that i cant really read these books.. let alone any books.. if its not perfect i flip... really gotta stop that shytt..
just attacked my face with my claws.. god dammit now im gunna be a puffer fish tommorrow full of pimples once again the perfectionalist wanting to get rid of all these pimples GHAD..
Crappy feeling day i must say...
Got to chill with glory making fun of the belen asses stumble down the street.. hehe best entertainment of life.
fixed up my comps musica and what not.. had to listen to EVERY single song to figure out what i wanted on my ipod or not.. playlists-- on and on... i have sooo many beatles songs running through my head right now
LAUREN YOU LEFT YOUR WALLET HERE!!!
Got my old new soccer ball that was broken at first.. my mom exchanged it YAY. I really need to be more agreeable with her... i tend to exaust my tension out at her which is totally wrong-- i guess i jsut think that shes a security..which is stupid cuz wut runs thru my thick ass head is "swimming was your outlet for everything now you dont have an outlet so just spark out everywhere cuz you have nothing to go to" bla bla bla SHUT UP BRAIN and TURN ON COMMON SENSE, i got the will power from it and the wrecked shoulders but now its time to enjoy the things and people that it was keeping me from in those insane hours of escaping what i needed to solve.
yea yea you dont want to hear this-- if i write down my blurbs tho it kinda helps me put the bits and pieces together.. or it just confuses me more...
kk either way im gunna go make a calander on my comp with all my flippn apts.. organize to satisfy..