i`m ready (i think)
I have made a important decision (well it is to me)I have decided to try really really hard to STOP self harming i need to write down everything bad that has ever happened to me (not on here though)and read it and see if i can move on and get over it and stop blaming and hurting myself i really do hate myself and i hate all the men that hurt me as a little girl and as a woman and all those bullies in school and work and my biological dad for never being there and my mum for letting me get abused and neglecting me.Although me and my mum get on ok at the moment so i am happy about that but i still stress out about things that happened.I just want a clean slate Me,my kids and a new life and to get that i need a new outlook although i dont know how to get that because i am a bad judge of character and dont see good in people anymore.well thats my rant over!! good luck to me i hope i dont slip up!