wow it's been a long ass time

[julesiscools05]

It's a Wednesday. Wednesday. Hmm. I have a week until my anniversary with Riley. Our One year, in one week. Last year at this time, I was so different. I was like well, a year younger, and i felt so much more confused and going through so much shit. Not like I'm not going through stuff now. Let me update you all. I'm on medication now. My stomach is screwed up, too much acid, so they put me on meds. They're strong meds, but I only take one a day. I'm also in therapy. I am going for anxiety and other reasons, and I'm also in an anxiety coping group. So therefore, I can cope with my anxiety. I have settled down a bit though, since I've gotten here. Kind of found my niche I guess. Figured out who my real friends were. Still trying to see who they really are, but seeing that I have a good group for now. It's wierd to have seperate groups of friends, home and school, but it's nice at the same time. It makes me miss the ones at home. Riley and I are doing well. We finally found a way to work. He gets his time, I get mine, and then we have time together. It's nice to have seperate time, makes me be glad to be around him when we get the change. I have a friend named Tyrel, he's 22, and really great. Kind of like a big brother to my group of friends. I'm definately keeping up on school, which is harder this year, but for some reason, I'm doing really well. Grades are great. My parents are keeping in touch with me, and feeding me in some sense. They give me grocery money. Yes, I have to grocery shop now. I feel like such an adult. I have a budget, and a menu and a kitchen and I cook. And I'm good at cooking too. I've looked into majoring in Recreational Management and minoring in Business. My advisor told me that'd be a good idea. I'm taking a rec and tourism class next quarter, accounting and psych 205. Life has it's good and bad days, but I've found that the bad days make me question everything, and everyone. And sometimes, that's not good. But the good days pull through the bad ones. I still have the daily struggle of figuring out who I am, and where I fit in with the world. That's a hard struggle. But the nice thing is that everyone around me is thinking the same things. Riley goes through it with me. I suppose that's how we're still together, confusion and challenges await us. However the idea of dating a boy for a year is something that excites me immensely. It's like knowing that he's been around for a year, and he's not going anywhere, knock on wood. I do love him though, probably more then I will ever admit.
Speaking of Riley, I should go visit him before class. I hope you are all doing well, and remember call me if you need anything.
-jules