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feels like the past is coming yet again to a brunt end. Isn't this what I wanted...for it to be all over. It feels like such a process...i wish i could rip it off like a band-aid.
Today was hard, signing on a loan for house I wont own anymore...searching through photos for the swim team and Rob's retirement from IIT. Realizing how happy I was in so many of those early pictures....what happened, how did it get to be the way it ended...how did we end up here -1000 miles apart and regretting talking to one another...uhg
Its awful, cause i am so happy with my life. I've made it. I have the job i want, i live in a place i love. I live near family and friends. I have ridiculous, yet amazing dog. WHY the fuck does it still hurt!!!
Today was hard, signing on a loan for house I wont own anymore...searching through photos for the swim team and Rob's retirement from IIT. Realizing how happy I was in so many of those early pictures....what happened, how did it get to be the way it ended...how did we end up here -1000 miles apart and regretting talking to one another...uhg
Its awful, cause i am so happy with my life. I've made it. I have the job i want, i live in a place i love. I live near family and friends. I have ridiculous, yet amazing dog. WHY the fuck does it still hurt!!!