When it struck me....
So a scary thought just hit me.
Yesterday in West Palm we were walking in this "ghetto" part of Clematis Street and secretly I was incredibly freaked out. Looking around, the people walking around us made me extremely nervous and a thousand thoughts popped into my head. Like kidnapping, mugging, theft...all that good stuff. But, it was wierd. I've walked around New York alone and felt just fine. Normally, I feel independent and in control, but yesterday I didn't, and I can't figure out why.
Adults and older people than myself have been telling me that Miami is a "scary, dangerous area" and Ive always brushed it off to be " something I could mentally and physically handle" but now I feel like I'll feel scared and lonely. I don't really know anyone else who's going there, ( even though I haven't received my acceptance yet), so I'm speaking hypothetically here, but anyways, I won't have any close friends or relatives down there, granted it is only 2 hours away. Furthurmore, Miami is a "City". I've never lived in a "City", needless to say alone in a city. I just picture myself being paranoid just walking around. I know this is stupid but it's starting to bother me.
If I end up going there I know I'll be fine. I'll just have to get over my stupid fears.
P.S. I can't wait to get my rejection letter and post it, so that all of you fuckers can laugh in my face. ;-)
Much luvvvvvvvvvvvvvv<3~jules