For now....
Getting overly busy - that is what I am doing. Throwing myself into my studies, everything Panhellenic/Kappa Delta, applying for jobs with Orientation so that I can stay down here this summer and make enough money to support myself, pay car insurance (July 1st - or thereabout - I'm getting one, if I can afford it), maybe go and visit DJ in Spain this summer, etc. Oh and let's not forget planing to go out! The girls insist that I go with them more and I intend to do just that - and with a smile.
Nonetheless, I feel like something is missing. I know that I am doing the right thing and that focusing totally on my own happiness, for once, is a good plan. Still, I am mentally unsettled. As always, I am analyzing my choices and questioning everything, only to arrive at more damned questions. What is the "right" thing to do when in order to be happy you must first be miserable?
Thank goodness for my family, friends, and sorority sisters, whom I pester to no end when something is bugging me - I love you guys.
P.S. I tried to write something in here that was meaningful, and I ended up marking it private anyway. I guess I'll never be that unreserved with my thoughts in LJ. Only the allusions and hints will remain for this English major.
TO END, I must again quote the song from my previous post (which refuses to leave my thoughts):
I will go down with this ship. -- (and no, DJ, it doesn't mean THAT! ;.)
And I won't put my hands up,
In surrender.
There will be no white flag above my door.
I'm in Love,
And always will be.
Nonetheless, I feel like something is missing. I know that I am doing the right thing and that focusing totally on my own happiness, for once, is a good plan. Still, I am mentally unsettled. As always, I am analyzing my choices and questioning everything, only to arrive at more damned questions. What is the "right" thing to do when in order to be happy you must first be miserable?
Thank goodness for my family, friends, and sorority sisters, whom I pester to no end when something is bugging me - I love you guys.
P.S. I tried to write something in here that was meaningful, and I ended up marking it private anyway. I guess I'll never be that unreserved with my thoughts in LJ. Only the allusions and hints will remain for this English major.
TO END, I must again quote the song from my previous post (which refuses to leave my thoughts):
I will go down with this ship. -- (and no, DJ, it doesn't mean THAT! ;.)
And I won't put my hands up,
In surrender.
There will be no white flag above my door.
I'm in Love,
And always will be.