Julie Bean
It's that age old question every teenage girl asks herself at some point in time. My time just happens to be at seventeen years of age, the week before I start my senior year of high school. WHO AM I?
I think I have come up with some answers. This is who I am. Though, once I get started, it's hard to know when I'll stop....
I have very low self-esteem on my image and who I am, but I don't want to focus on that.... I promise if I stray towards it, I will try and steer myself back on track.
I love it when people use my nicknames. I have lots of them. Jules, Julie, Bean, Julie Bean, Green Bean, Grasshopper, Lily, Cookie, Neens, Missy Moo... just to name a few. I love my green eyes. Sometimes I look in the mirror and find the reflection miraculously pretty; it's a rare occasion, so when it happens, I hate to look away. I love it when people play with my hair. I love hugs. I like hearing people sing along with acoustic guitar. I love it when people sing to me.
I happen to not be embarrassed of my parents and love them very much. I have friends, Melissa, Michelle, Andrew and Kait, who are more like brother and sisters to me than my own blood brother is. Melissa just so happens to still be my Other Self, and I her One And Only, theoretically still joint at the hip despite the two state distance.
I love traveling. I love sleeping in my own bed after being away for awhile. I love to sleep. I love to play in the rain above most things. Water comforts me. Whether it be sitting on the sand, walking along the shore, on the docks or the breakwall, or dipping my feet into a creek, the water reaches out to me and I respond. Usually those are the times when I'm feeling down or like my dog is my only friend.
I am a serious person. I am sentimental. I get very attached. Sometimes I even have a hard time letting go. I try to hide things from myself, mostly emotions. I am very emotional. I am too dependent on others sometimes. I live to please others. If you're unhappy, I make it my mission to reverse that. When you're happy, I'm happy. I treasure my friends. I admire, and sometimes still long for, the innocence of childhood. I am a hopeless romantic. I cry at movies. At books. At beautiful pieces of instrumental music. I cry even at those close-knit last Concord performances of the year. I mean, how can you not? Sometimes I find that a song fits my mood. I love music. All kinds.... except country. I can't get past the twangy drone (sorry country fans). I am a closet Avril Lavigne fan, seeing that some people view her on the same level as the anti-Christ. I happen to like the lyrics in her songs, whether she wrote them or not. Besides, I think she has a pretty voice.
Religion scares me to death. That some people kill themselves and others in the name of it terrifies me. I wish everyone would accept everyone for who they are and not for their own personal beliefs. That's one of the reasons I hate George Bush. If it were up to him, we'd all be straight Christians. Goodbye diversity and individuality, hello boring. My mother is Jewish, and my dad is a Christian, and I am maybe somewhere in between. A Jistian, I jokingly tell other people, even though I really don't know. I don't think I'm either. I'm not saying I believe in God, and I'm not saying I don't. I'm saying I believe in a higher power, I just don't have a clue as to what/who that is. But I love that others are so comfortable in their faith, or lack there of, as long as they don't persecute others for being different. If I could conjure God in my mind, I would see God as a black Muslim-practicing woman. Now how is that for diverse? I think diversity should be celebrated, not discriminated.
I love basketball. The Pistons and Sixers are my favorite teams. I harbor a lot of loyalty to my hometown Philadelphia, so much that sometimes people tease me about it, which makes me feel bad. I just remind myself that they just don't understand. And although I complain about it a lot, I love living in Petoskey. It's beautiful and a wonderful place to grow up. I love my school. I wouldn't choose to go anywhere else, even though I do complain about it at times. I think it's too unique and special of a place to leave. Sometimes I take it for granted, even though I try not to.
I love to take pictures. I love being able to capture a moment forever. I love recording those moments in my journal. I love to look at photos and paintings and decide for myself what it's about, seeing that everyone is entitled to their own opinions.
Sometimes I cry a lot. Sometimes I feel sad for just no reason at all. But other times I am very bubbley and hyper. I love to laugh. Sometimes people say I laugh too much, but I don't think there is such a thing. Some people think I'm weird. Maybe I am, I don't know. I still sleep with the stuffed 101 Dalmatian, Lucky, that I got for Christmas when I was three years old.
I love to sing. If I could, I'd sing all day. But not in front of anyone. I'm too scared. People have to coax me into it, which is a shame because all I ever wanted to do was sing in a band. I love to act on stage. I love pretending to be someone I'm not. I 'm rather partial. to the color red, and my favorite flowers are lilies. Johnny Depp is my favorite actor. I have too many favorite bands and movies to list. I love writing down quotes and lyrics in my notebook.
I love having a crazy style. I enjoy wearing skirts over pants and tweaking items of clothing to suit my liking. I am an earring whore (I just love earrings). I love skirts and dresses, but I think I look silly in them. I am more open and honest to my guy friends than I am to my girl friends (save for Melissa, Michelle and a select other few, of course).
Sometimes I get very shy and don't talk, while other times I talk too much. I make lists for everything, like my Aunt Dorie. I look more like my dad than my mom. I want to go on a humanitarian aid trip to Africa to help distribute food and clothes to those who desperately need it. I find joy in donating blood to the American Red Cross, seeing that I have the universal blood type that anyone may use, O-Negative. I love to organize things. I am very random. I am a bookworm and proud of it. I don't drink or smoke. My goal post-high school is to study psychology and theatre arts at Richmond American International University in London, even though it's a long shot. Sometimes I stay up very late at night into early morning, because I can't get my brain to stop thinking.
I write like mad. Stories. Poetry. Journal updates in my online journal. I'm always writing. Jodi Picoult, Lori Gottlieb and Dorothy Parker are few of my favorite authors. My birthday is in May, my birthstone is an emerald, and I am a gemini. I used to look like Mary-Kate Olsen when I was younger. Lots of people still say I do, even going as far as calling me M.K., and some still ask if I'm related to her.
I prefer thrift stores to designer clothing. I hate American Eagle, Abercrombie & Fitch, and those stores that belong in the same category. My favorite season is fall, although summer is fun and winter is beautiful at Christmas time. The colors in fall just astound me and I can't get over how perfect the days can feel, temperatures cool enough just for a sweatshirt, crisp air, red and gold trees, and blue skies filled with puffy gray white clouds that look like heaven to sleep on. I'm terrible at math and science; English and history are my better subjects. Sometimes I'm an over-achiever. Sometimes I'm obsessive compulsive over things, but not over others, like my room.
Sometimes I'm excited for what is to come.
Other times, my future scares me.
.: Juliana :.
I think I have come up with some answers. This is who I am. Though, once I get started, it's hard to know when I'll stop....
I have very low self-esteem on my image and who I am, but I don't want to focus on that.... I promise if I stray towards it, I will try and steer myself back on track.
I love it when people use my nicknames. I have lots of them. Jules, Julie, Bean, Julie Bean, Green Bean, Grasshopper, Lily, Cookie, Neens, Missy Moo... just to name a few. I love my green eyes. Sometimes I look in the mirror and find the reflection miraculously pretty; it's a rare occasion, so when it happens, I hate to look away. I love it when people play with my hair. I love hugs. I like hearing people sing along with acoustic guitar. I love it when people sing to me.
I happen to not be embarrassed of my parents and love them very much. I have friends, Melissa, Michelle, Andrew and Kait, who are more like brother and sisters to me than my own blood brother is. Melissa just so happens to still be my Other Self, and I her One And Only, theoretically still joint at the hip despite the two state distance.
I love traveling. I love sleeping in my own bed after being away for awhile. I love to sleep. I love to play in the rain above most things. Water comforts me. Whether it be sitting on the sand, walking along the shore, on the docks or the breakwall, or dipping my feet into a creek, the water reaches out to me and I respond. Usually those are the times when I'm feeling down or like my dog is my only friend.
I am a serious person. I am sentimental. I get very attached. Sometimes I even have a hard time letting go. I try to hide things from myself, mostly emotions. I am very emotional. I am too dependent on others sometimes. I live to please others. If you're unhappy, I make it my mission to reverse that. When you're happy, I'm happy. I treasure my friends. I admire, and sometimes still long for, the innocence of childhood. I am a hopeless romantic. I cry at movies. At books. At beautiful pieces of instrumental music. I cry even at those close-knit last Concord performances of the year. I mean, how can you not? Sometimes I find that a song fits my mood. I love music. All kinds.... except country. I can't get past the twangy drone (sorry country fans). I am a closet Avril Lavigne fan, seeing that some people view her on the same level as the anti-Christ. I happen to like the lyrics in her songs, whether she wrote them or not. Besides, I think she has a pretty voice.
Religion scares me to death. That some people kill themselves and others in the name of it terrifies me. I wish everyone would accept everyone for who they are and not for their own personal beliefs. That's one of the reasons I hate George Bush. If it were up to him, we'd all be straight Christians. Goodbye diversity and individuality, hello boring. My mother is Jewish, and my dad is a Christian, and I am maybe somewhere in between. A Jistian, I jokingly tell other people, even though I really don't know. I don't think I'm either. I'm not saying I believe in God, and I'm not saying I don't. I'm saying I believe in a higher power, I just don't have a clue as to what/who that is. But I love that others are so comfortable in their faith, or lack there of, as long as they don't persecute others for being different. If I could conjure God in my mind, I would see God as a black Muslim-practicing woman. Now how is that for diverse? I think diversity should be celebrated, not discriminated.
I love basketball. The Pistons and Sixers are my favorite teams. I harbor a lot of loyalty to my hometown Philadelphia, so much that sometimes people tease me about it, which makes me feel bad. I just remind myself that they just don't understand. And although I complain about it a lot, I love living in Petoskey. It's beautiful and a wonderful place to grow up. I love my school. I wouldn't choose to go anywhere else, even though I do complain about it at times. I think it's too unique and special of a place to leave. Sometimes I take it for granted, even though I try not to.
I love to take pictures. I love being able to capture a moment forever. I love recording those moments in my journal. I love to look at photos and paintings and decide for myself what it's about, seeing that everyone is entitled to their own opinions.
Sometimes I cry a lot. Sometimes I feel sad for just no reason at all. But other times I am very bubbley and hyper. I love to laugh. Sometimes people say I laugh too much, but I don't think there is such a thing. Some people think I'm weird. Maybe I am, I don't know. I still sleep with the stuffed 101 Dalmatian, Lucky, that I got for Christmas when I was three years old.
I love to sing. If I could, I'd sing all day. But not in front of anyone. I'm too scared. People have to coax me into it, which is a shame because all I ever wanted to do was sing in a band. I love to act on stage. I love pretending to be someone I'm not. I 'm rather partial. to the color red, and my favorite flowers are lilies. Johnny Depp is my favorite actor. I have too many favorite bands and movies to list. I love writing down quotes and lyrics in my notebook.
I love having a crazy style. I enjoy wearing skirts over pants and tweaking items of clothing to suit my liking. I am an earring whore (I just love earrings). I love skirts and dresses, but I think I look silly in them. I am more open and honest to my guy friends than I am to my girl friends (save for Melissa, Michelle and a select other few, of course).
Sometimes I get very shy and don't talk, while other times I talk too much. I make lists for everything, like my Aunt Dorie. I look more like my dad than my mom. I want to go on a humanitarian aid trip to Africa to help distribute food and clothes to those who desperately need it. I find joy in donating blood to the American Red Cross, seeing that I have the universal blood type that anyone may use, O-Negative. I love to organize things. I am very random. I am a bookworm and proud of it. I don't drink or smoke. My goal post-high school is to study psychology and theatre arts at Richmond American International University in London, even though it's a long shot. Sometimes I stay up very late at night into early morning, because I can't get my brain to stop thinking.
I write like mad. Stories. Poetry. Journal updates in my online journal. I'm always writing. Jodi Picoult, Lori Gottlieb and Dorothy Parker are few of my favorite authors. My birthday is in May, my birthstone is an emerald, and I am a gemini. I used to look like Mary-Kate Olsen when I was younger. Lots of people still say I do, even going as far as calling me M.K., and some still ask if I'm related to her.
I prefer thrift stores to designer clothing. I hate American Eagle, Abercrombie & Fitch, and those stores that belong in the same category. My favorite season is fall, although summer is fun and winter is beautiful at Christmas time. The colors in fall just astound me and I can't get over how perfect the days can feel, temperatures cool enough just for a sweatshirt, crisp air, red and gold trees, and blue skies filled with puffy gray white clouds that look like heaven to sleep on. I'm terrible at math and science; English and history are my better subjects. Sometimes I'm an over-achiever. Sometimes I'm obsessive compulsive over things, but not over others, like my room.
Sometimes I'm excited for what is to come.
Other times, my future scares me.
.: Juliana :.