8 more days
my dad found out tonight I smoke
he's not speaking to me
and knowing him
he wont for a very long time
I'm 18
I can make my own decisions
right now I'm invincible
I'm not thinking about the future
even if cancer lies in it
he acts like its a slap in the face because his mom is dieing of cancer and emphysema
but what about all the things he has done to me?
I wish I could forgive or forget
I would like to be able to hold one real conversation with my dad
I don't understand how he could have changed so much that one year
I went from being his little girl
to being nothing to him
I told him I wanted to major in art
he told me I'd be better off dead because I end up like my mom, working at Hallmark
he refused to come to my art show last night
I just want to make him proud
but right now
I feel that will always be impossible
he's not speaking to me
and knowing him
he wont for a very long time
I'm 18
I can make my own decisions
right now I'm invincible
I'm not thinking about the future
even if cancer lies in it
he acts like its a slap in the face because his mom is dieing of cancer and emphysema
but what about all the things he has done to me?
I wish I could forgive or forget
I would like to be able to hold one real conversation with my dad
I don't understand how he could have changed so much that one year
I went from being his little girl
to being nothing to him
I told him I wanted to major in art
he told me I'd be better off dead because I end up like my mom, working at Hallmark
he refused to come to my art show last night
I just want to make him proud
but right now
I feel that will always be impossible