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I haven't written on here in who knows how long. I haven't had the need to. But now I'm feeling sick. This week has been so stressful and I haven't been able to properly put it into words and when I write I can put things into words fairly well. I have been having really bad dreams lately, bad thoughts. I just haven't been feeling right. I had to write a memoir for my Italian Literature class that made me hate my family. I reread someone's livejournal and I haven't told that person yet that it made me feel horrible inside. Then yesterday, to top off all the bad omens I have been feeling, I was in my first accident yesterday. Someone rear ended me. And so the bad dreams continue. Now I'm imagining myself and Ulysses (who was with me in the car) flying through the windshield. Granted, it wasn't a bad accident, but now things are strained because of doctors and insurance companies and other factors. So on top of the accident, I now have to worry about where things stand. I have to write 2 papers today but all I can think about is a family hating me and a family hating him and where we stand. Because of a stupid accident. I know there is worse in life, but I cannot deal with it all at once. Maybe I didn't articulate it as well as I wanted, but I can't take all the hatred and stress that is being put on my shoulders. I'm sick of crying about this. I feel very weak.