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[jujutwinks]

why is it in here I can write a million times over and over how bad I want it... but when it comes down to putting it on the paper for the board to read it... my mind goes blank... been thinking about what to say all day... and I have the ideas... but seriously lack the ability to make the transition to paper. Also reading the ap again today.. I won't find anything out till December... ouch... so the idea of having surgery is kinda out... cuz I would be having it in December... and then... after I find out.... if I make the next cut... I have an interview... and a written interview... why does it have to be so hard... or why am I making it so hard... cuz I know I can do this... but it's just not working... maybe I also have a few other things on my mind... but ya know... that's life and it's normal...

well to update on the weekend.... saddly I was hit on by a highschooler... self esteem shot to hell from it... and no thanks to Andy making it waaay worse by tellin me it's a good thing to look like I'm in highschool... nope no thanks... not when I am about to try an enter O.T. school thanks.... see the cottage boys... or just Keith and Flo was fun... met Broke, Andy, and Josh?... it was cool... just kinda chilled by the fire... not much happened... and today... well as you can see above the stress I'm dealing with...

If I can just managed to shut off this music and concentrate on this ap... I should be able to get it done...