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oh wow, today's a big day for lj...my life must really be that fucked up. Or maybe just me.
I'm trying to convince myself that I deserve to be loved...that I deserve to have friends that treat me like gold and not a pain. I deserve to have people around me, that want to be around me...that enjoy my company. I like to surround myself with people who will benefit me as a person, who bring joy to my life. I've been wrong in the past, I just hate to think that I could be wrong in the future. I know that if I think these positive thoughts that I will have positive things come to me. I need to rid the poison out of my life.
Did he ask me to go to the selby thing just to be a babysitter? I dont know. Now, don't get me wrong, I love those boys, but when I got there I realized he wouldnt have been able to do what he did there if I wasnt watching them.
*****Attention lj readers, this pity party has been diverted by the lovely Michelle Bologna who has just called and made me feel sooooooooooooo much better. I love you for telling me exactly how it is. Woohoo for the 7 o'clock hour right? hahaha
alright, in the words of that british chic, if you like me, thank you, if not, fuck you.
I'm trying to convince myself that I deserve to be loved...that I deserve to have friends that treat me like gold and not a pain. I deserve to have people around me, that want to be around me...that enjoy my company. I like to surround myself with people who will benefit me as a person, who bring joy to my life. I've been wrong in the past, I just hate to think that I could be wrong in the future. I know that if I think these positive thoughts that I will have positive things come to me. I need to rid the poison out of my life.
Did he ask me to go to the selby thing just to be a babysitter? I dont know. Now, don't get me wrong, I love those boys, but when I got there I realized he wouldnt have been able to do what he did there if I wasnt watching them.
*****Attention lj readers, this pity party has been diverted by the lovely Michelle Bologna who has just called and made me feel sooooooooooooo much better. I love you for telling me exactly how it is. Woohoo for the 7 o'clock hour right? hahaha
alright, in the words of that british chic, if you like me, thank you, if not, fuck you.