like a wince

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or flinch

i know what's coming.
such a sense of urgency and panic you create for me

i'm so scared of everything
so much so that i give faces to my fears
and don't despise them, but cower under them
so terrified

of just the thoughts
when people are angry with me it just shakes me completely now
every little thing, you're right. it upsets me.

but how can i dismiss the little things?
i never payed attention before, and it cost me.
it cost me so much of my life.
i feel i need to protect myself in any way possible.