I moved!
Well I have moved in and Sara will be here either tonight or tomorrow. Right now I am Brybry's bc I did not want to stay in that apartment all by myself just yet. I really like it, it is nothing fancy and i can tell the management is going to be annoying (Sara's door is broken so it wont close and they do not think it is a big deal), but other than that it is nice sized, my bedroom is huge, much bigger than any room I have ever had. I have a walk in closet with a private bathroom. I do not have a bath tub in my bathroom but that is ok bc I can take baths at Bry's and just shower when I am at home which i am fine with bc all summer my parents have been working on our 1 bathroom so all I did was take baths at home. I am sure Mar can understand the frustration of perpetual home makeovers.
Last night I got drunk with Meg and found out good and bad stuff. Bad stuff- she tells Ron all my secrets, good stuff- we have an immense amount in common still even after our estrangement, I think despite Ronne i will finaly have my Meg back again. I was majorly hunng over this morning and tried to rehydrate but just made myself sick. I realized at 5pm i had only eaten maybe 800 calories yesterday and had had 0 in the last 22 hours. So I was shaking and felt like people were hammering nails into my head and had been on a roller coaster all day. So i slowly got up and had Bry take me to McDonalds I had chicken nuggets and fries and a diet coke and now I feel 100x better. I learned that even though I am not completely gone at 4 shots I should still stop there and I should not drink a lot on an empty stomach.
Bry and I had had problems right before I moved bc he said very hurtful things and last nigt i hada complete break down and feel stupid now but it was the same kind of break down I had on he phone with him a few days ago when I was sober so i think I really needed to just get it all out. I feel better and he is behaving better even though he made fun of my "crazy drunken fit" which i am sure was repulsive.
Anyway, I think I will be imensely happier this year and anyone can come visit bc i will have a living room with a couch plus plenty of floor spce for sleeping bags.
To those of you who knew I would- I miss you very much already.
Last night I got drunk with Meg and found out good and bad stuff. Bad stuff- she tells Ron all my secrets, good stuff- we have an immense amount in common still even after our estrangement, I think despite Ronne i will finaly have my Meg back again. I was majorly hunng over this morning and tried to rehydrate but just made myself sick. I realized at 5pm i had only eaten maybe 800 calories yesterday and had had 0 in the last 22 hours. So I was shaking and felt like people were hammering nails into my head and had been on a roller coaster all day. So i slowly got up and had Bry take me to McDonalds I had chicken nuggets and fries and a diet coke and now I feel 100x better. I learned that even though I am not completely gone at 4 shots I should still stop there and I should not drink a lot on an empty stomach.
Bry and I had had problems right before I moved bc he said very hurtful things and last nigt i hada complete break down and feel stupid now but it was the same kind of break down I had on he phone with him a few days ago when I was sober so i think I really needed to just get it all out. I feel better and he is behaving better even though he made fun of my "crazy drunken fit" which i am sure was repulsive.
Anyway, I think I will be imensely happier this year and anyone can come visit bc i will have a living room with a couch plus plenty of floor spce for sleeping bags.
To those of you who knew I would- I miss you very much already.