Every time I'm down the Lord lifts me up...
one of the songs i was listening to earlier today in my car (Audio Adrenaline).
i just dont know what my problem is. i just dont feel happy. i was driving home today and i was thinking what would happen if i had gotten in a bad car accident and had been really hurt, or even died. who would come visit me in the hospital... who would come to my funeral... who would really care? i know there are people out there who do care but then there are others who im not so sure of. dont worry im not going to go and kill myself... im just feeling a little down today. actually i have been feeling so all weekend. i think my family is getting to me a little and my friends didnt help much this weekend. joe wasnt even around a whole lot like he usually is. only saw him for a couple hours thursday night, 2 hours friday, sat. spent most of the day with him, sunday only saw him for a couple hours. i mean i know some of you are prolly like yeah, whatever, i hardly ever see my bf/gf. but you gotta understand that joe and i spend a lot of time together, almost all of our free time and to spend such little time with him over the weekend was werid. tom was the only other person i saw. we spend most of friday together and sunday night together.
i really should be working on my paper right now thats due thursday. who knows if ill get anything done on it tonight. its monday so its amie night, she'll be over at 9ish... and i still have to bake some cookies for the kids tomorrow morning at my church to decorate. and here i am typing on this stupid journal cause i cant concentrate on anything else. i really dont know why i feel like this right now... i have been trying all day to get my mind on other things. i even skipped french class (nothing new) with melodie and paul and we went out to eat then sat in the coffee bean in downtown plymouth for like an hour before we all had to go to work.
"For as long as I shall live I will testify to love, I'll be your weakness in the silences when words are not enough. With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above. For as long as I shall live I will testify to love."
I love that song, havent listened to it in a long time. I started to listen to my Wow cds, which are mix cds of christian artists. I think thats Avalon or something like that. this kind of music always clams me and cheers me up...
ok... i think im done now... im sorry if ive worried anyone... i know i dont get like this very often... i just had to write stuff down cause it helps me... ok i think i should go start baking those cookies and maybe start my paper... pray that i get it done in time!!!
i just dont know what my problem is. i just dont feel happy. i was driving home today and i was thinking what would happen if i had gotten in a bad car accident and had been really hurt, or even died. who would come visit me in the hospital... who would come to my funeral... who would really care? i know there are people out there who do care but then there are others who im not so sure of. dont worry im not going to go and kill myself... im just feeling a little down today. actually i have been feeling so all weekend. i think my family is getting to me a little and my friends didnt help much this weekend. joe wasnt even around a whole lot like he usually is. only saw him for a couple hours thursday night, 2 hours friday, sat. spent most of the day with him, sunday only saw him for a couple hours. i mean i know some of you are prolly like yeah, whatever, i hardly ever see my bf/gf. but you gotta understand that joe and i spend a lot of time together, almost all of our free time and to spend such little time with him over the weekend was werid. tom was the only other person i saw. we spend most of friday together and sunday night together.
i really should be working on my paper right now thats due thursday. who knows if ill get anything done on it tonight. its monday so its amie night, she'll be over at 9ish... and i still have to bake some cookies for the kids tomorrow morning at my church to decorate. and here i am typing on this stupid journal cause i cant concentrate on anything else. i really dont know why i feel like this right now... i have been trying all day to get my mind on other things. i even skipped french class (nothing new) with melodie and paul and we went out to eat then sat in the coffee bean in downtown plymouth for like an hour before we all had to go to work.
"For as long as I shall live I will testify to love, I'll be your weakness in the silences when words are not enough. With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above. For as long as I shall live I will testify to love."
I love that song, havent listened to it in a long time. I started to listen to my Wow cds, which are mix cds of christian artists. I think thats Avalon or something like that. this kind of music always clams me and cheers me up...
ok... i think im done now... im sorry if ive worried anyone... i know i dont get like this very often... i just had to write stuff down cause it helps me... ok i think i should go start baking those cookies and maybe start my paper... pray that i get it done in time!!!