What a day!

[juju4262]

So I'm fully convinced that addy works miracles. I got home this morning got gas, ciggys, subway a carwash, vacuumed my car, cleaned it thoroughly prolly spelled that wrong but ah well. And the biggest thing of all I told my dad I was gay. I told him initially that there was something I wanted to tell him for a long time and then just plain out said, I'm gay dad and as I almost began crying, he laughed and said, "yea I figured." He had said he noticed me changing after I broke up with Jay like hair style and such and he figured that Angie and I were together. He basically said that he loves me no matter what, and that doesn't change the fact that I'm still his daughter. The only negative thing is that he doesn't want me to tell my grandmothers or my little sisters, and he doesn't want to see any affection what so ever which is actually completely understandable. But it puts my mind at ease greatly so that now when he does meet my Jilly this weekend I don't have to worry about him wondering about it. I love him so much and he's the only parent I have and I don't even get to see him but once or twice a year so it lifts a big amount of stress off of my shoulders to know that my daddy will still love me no matter what. I definately didn't plan on telling him any time soon, I've contemplated it but didn't ever think I could actually do it because I was so scared he'd disown me er whatever.

I'm still kinda in aw that I told him, I feel really wierd right now about it, I think I just kinda surprised myself, but I really wanted Jilly to be around me when I'm with them so i felt it necessary. So as for the rest of the day just need to get some stuff done and tommorrow is a long 14 hour day and another 13 hour day the next so that I can get out of work earlier to see my family Friday. But love love love to all and I hope everyone is doing well.