december
there are a couple of reasons i dont update frequently. 1) im pretty sure everyone blogs on myspace now, so usage on LJ is way down, and 2) noteworthy events in my life are few and far between.
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2007 has come and gone. yippiddy doo. blahblahblah.
i know ive said it over and over, and even talked about my talking about it over and over, but my job, seriously, is driving me insane. and really starting to piss me off. the simple fact that this week has been chock full of complaints against me (which i believe to be complaints against the department unjustly blameshifted in my general direction). Everything from the time it takes me to complete an order, to when i fucking take my smoke breaks. assholes, the whole lot of them. also, this week, they asked that when no one else is around, i answer the phones. thats fine. apparently our department has a reputation of being "hard to get a hold of." fine. but hi, this is yet ANOTHER responsiblity i have, without an extra fucking penny. In may, i will have been here for FOUR YEARS. and im still being paid as a fucking student. not one extra penny in four fucking years, and they have the fucking balls to look me in the face and be like "oh sorry, theres nothing we can do" ?!
"nothing we can do." yeah, nothing except cut my hours and pay me even less. FUCKING JACKASSES. they're like, oh we may be able to help you next year. honestly, you people thing at the rate thing have been going, im going to stick around for much longer?
im definitely determined to do something with myself after the holidays. whether it be get into law school, grad school, or get a job that pays me enough to fucking put gas in my car, i'm getting out of here. i must.
i was thinking the other day about the age that im at right now. and stage in life, which, i suppose is a little different. but it seems like every decision i make (or have to make) is based on other things, and every decision is life altering. my inability to make a decision, or get anywhere regardless of effort, seems to be have me stagnant and pathetic.
i yearn for a day where i can stand up, look at my life, and be like "wow, im so accomplished, i have everything i could need. this is what happiness feels like. wee." but as of now, its more like... "wow, my life is a heaping pile of cow shit."
i have three choices right now, since even my credit has been exhausted (for the most part)... A) make things better -- B) become a crack slinging prostitute, or -- C) die.
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2007 has come and gone. yippiddy doo. blahblahblah.
i know ive said it over and over, and even talked about my talking about it over and over, but my job, seriously, is driving me insane. and really starting to piss me off. the simple fact that this week has been chock full of complaints against me (which i believe to be complaints against the department unjustly blameshifted in my general direction). Everything from the time it takes me to complete an order, to when i fucking take my smoke breaks. assholes, the whole lot of them. also, this week, they asked that when no one else is around, i answer the phones. thats fine. apparently our department has a reputation of being "hard to get a hold of." fine. but hi, this is yet ANOTHER responsiblity i have, without an extra fucking penny. In may, i will have been here for FOUR YEARS. and im still being paid as a fucking student. not one extra penny in four fucking years, and they have the fucking balls to look me in the face and be like "oh sorry, theres nothing we can do" ?!
"nothing we can do." yeah, nothing except cut my hours and pay me even less. FUCKING JACKASSES. they're like, oh we may be able to help you next year. honestly, you people thing at the rate thing have been going, im going to stick around for much longer?
im definitely determined to do something with myself after the holidays. whether it be get into law school, grad school, or get a job that pays me enough to fucking put gas in my car, i'm getting out of here. i must.
i was thinking the other day about the age that im at right now. and stage in life, which, i suppose is a little different. but it seems like every decision i make (or have to make) is based on other things, and every decision is life altering. my inability to make a decision, or get anywhere regardless of effort, seems to be have me stagnant and pathetic.
i yearn for a day where i can stand up, look at my life, and be like "wow, im so accomplished, i have everything i could need. this is what happiness feels like. wee." but as of now, its more like... "wow, my life is a heaping pile of cow shit."
i have three choices right now, since even my credit has been exhausted (for the most part)... A) make things better -- B) become a crack slinging prostitute, or -- C) die.