fuck my life
is this what my life is doomed to? shitty jobs with shitty pay, living at home, racking up debt, and getting drunk all the time?
why is it so hard for me to find something... anything...a door marked "the good life, this way," anything at all to do with my life, so that i could be able to say,without any uncertainty, "here i am, i'm an adult, and a functioning member of soceity."
I feel like a soulless shell, in a world i have no place in, constantly watching others expertly navigate themselves through the human condition. and I, who never felt as if i should have been here in the first place, have been fucked, screwed, twisted and mangled all up and down the human condition, to the point where i dont even know what to do as i sit here, moping.
today's just a bad day. and im going to take my pack of cigarettes, my coffee, and go sit on the sidewalk, secluded from everyone in this god forsaken catholic university, and cry.
the clock is ticking, no work is being done, and someone is bound to notice that ive done nothing today but mope and futilely work on a future.
"i dont want to die, but sometimes wish i'd never been born at all."
-Bohemian Rhapsody
why is it so hard for me to find something... anything...a door marked "the good life, this way," anything at all to do with my life, so that i could be able to say,without any uncertainty, "here i am, i'm an adult, and a functioning member of soceity."
I feel like a soulless shell, in a world i have no place in, constantly watching others expertly navigate themselves through the human condition. and I, who never felt as if i should have been here in the first place, have been fucked, screwed, twisted and mangled all up and down the human condition, to the point where i dont even know what to do as i sit here, moping.
today's just a bad day. and im going to take my pack of cigarettes, my coffee, and go sit on the sidewalk, secluded from everyone in this god forsaken catholic university, and cry.
the clock is ticking, no work is being done, and someone is bound to notice that ive done nothing today but mope and futilely work on a future.
"i dont want to die, but sometimes wish i'd never been born at all."
-Bohemian Rhapsody