give me a g. give me an r. give me an e.
im done obsessing over this test and worrying. sure im nervous. but id hate for people to look at me and say "if you cant even get through a test without flipping the hell out for a week, how the hell do you expect to get through grad school. and LIFE for that matter."
because i'll be fine. sure. but whatever. i dont have to like the process of getting there.
i also finally admitted to myself that i really dont know what the hell i want to do with myself. i think maybe thats why the notion of grad school was so appealing. im stalling.
how the hell does everyone else know what to do?
ive been thinking about quitting this job. if just for "the fear." i need the fear. i need to not be employed so i can focus on finding a real job. sure its easier to find a job if you already have one, but not when the job takes up every fiber of your waking life.
i miss being 18 and the biggest worry i had was where to party on friday night. does anyone else constantly feel like saying something (in jest) but wont, only because the last time you told anyone, they thought about baker acting you? haha. god.
fucking hell.
because i'll be fine. sure. but whatever. i dont have to like the process of getting there.
i also finally admitted to myself that i really dont know what the hell i want to do with myself. i think maybe thats why the notion of grad school was so appealing. im stalling.
how the hell does everyone else know what to do?
ive been thinking about quitting this job. if just for "the fear." i need the fear. i need to not be employed so i can focus on finding a real job. sure its easier to find a job if you already have one, but not when the job takes up every fiber of your waking life.
i miss being 18 and the biggest worry i had was where to party on friday night. does anyone else constantly feel like saying something (in jest) but wont, only because the last time you told anyone, they thought about baker acting you? haha. god.
fucking hell.