A New Era - The end of Late Night
So, Late Night with Conan O'Brien ended Friday night. I nearly cried. Had a long conversation with my good friend Amelia afterward (concerning a bunch of things, not just Conan).
But you know? I've grown up in my adolescent-to-teenage years with Conan. Since about.. 2004 or 2005. The same time I got heavy with Gackt.
And now in 2009, so many things happened this week, at the close of Late Night. My father left my family, and separated from my mom... my aunt's house burned to the ground... I told my mom that I couldn't stand to live with her, and hurt her to the core (later apologized for my lack of familial grace or respect)... I hurt Storm, a friend of mine, because I left her behind at lunch like she was something to throw away, and at the same time realized how I will not suffer fools or egocentrics, and finally came to the conclusion:
I am an adult. I have responsibilities. I owe my parents greatly. I need to rediscover what love means, and I need to find out the truth. There is so much to do, and I should take a page out of Conan's book, or Gackt's book, or anyone that I look up to: To Never Give Up.
If my goal is to be educated and intelligent, then I must educate myself. There is so much to learn yet, and I must have faith in the inherent goodness of my humanity. I doubt myself so much, being the cynic that I am. I must simply go forward with all my strength and dignity (or maybe lack thereof).
I must never stop. Never give up. I must keep on living, and I want to see what life can offer. If I am willing to work, then any of my dreams are possible.
But you know? I've grown up in my adolescent-to-teenage years with Conan. Since about.. 2004 or 2005. The same time I got heavy with Gackt.
And now in 2009, so many things happened this week, at the close of Late Night. My father left my family, and separated from my mom... my aunt's house burned to the ground... I told my mom that I couldn't stand to live with her, and hurt her to the core (later apologized for my lack of familial grace or respect)... I hurt Storm, a friend of mine, because I left her behind at lunch like she was something to throw away, and at the same time realized how I will not suffer fools or egocentrics, and finally came to the conclusion:
I am an adult. I have responsibilities. I owe my parents greatly. I need to rediscover what love means, and I need to find out the truth. There is so much to do, and I should take a page out of Conan's book, or Gackt's book, or anyone that I look up to: To Never Give Up.
If my goal is to be educated and intelligent, then I must educate myself. There is so much to learn yet, and I must have faith in the inherent goodness of my humanity. I doubt myself so much, being the cynic that I am. I must simply go forward with all my strength and dignity (or maybe lack thereof).
I must never stop. Never give up. I must keep on living, and I want to see what life can offer. If I am willing to work, then any of my dreams are possible.