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Mar 30, 2004 23:46

I just had a realization in the shower. Isn't that were they always happen? In places where you cn't remember enough to write them down.

Anyway...here it is.

I've always been a self conscious person. I honestly think it started with my pale skin and the gap in between my teeth. Most people says it adds character. I think it just makes me stand out in a bad way. I'd rather stand out because my eyes are the coolest turquoise ever rather than just blue.

The one thing that I can change about myself as frequently as I wish is my hair. Yet I still need approval from people. Friends constantly tell me from day to day.."I like your hair better in that picture" or "this color just doesn't work for you" or the worst...when they tell you they really like it when you hate it so so much.

And me, trying to please people and take their advice sometimes do what it is they think will look best....even if I don't like it.

So here's where the realization kicks in.

If I don't like it....people will be able to tell and I really won't be confident. If I change something to the way I know I'll like it, I'll be a lot more sure of myself and I'll walk around with my head held high. Because I'll be happy with myself.

No one is going to look at me when my hair is cut the way my friends like it and I hate it and think "Wow, that girl has something special going for her."

But if I do something that I want and I like and fits me, I can go around looking confident and I'll have the special glow about me that will make people turn.

So in reality...its all about how I feel about myself and what I think is best.

And sure, friends opinions can help and give good insight, but it really just comes down to making sure that you're happy with yourself, because that's when you can start being the best person that's down inside.

Isn't it kind of sad that we need to feel secure on the outside before we're secure on the inside?
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