the blogging urge once more....
so yeah... once more i feel the need to post a blog.....
so yeah.... as i was downstairs in my room cleaning i was going threw stuff & i found a whole bunch of stuff i had saved from when i went to colorado with mals family... (like my plane ticket, stuff from amy & eriks wedding.. & blah blah blah) & even though i was gone for 3 days... it was one of the best 3 days i had all year..... i just wish i could go & get away again for a few days... but i dont know of any more "big trips" i'll be taking again this year... which really sucks..... i mean i know i will be going up to chicago for the day on november 20 to see Harry Potter 4 on IMAX & then to PF Changs to eat... & i sooooo cant wait cuz i love it in chicago... but still i want soemthing more..
sadly i ALWAYS want something more... i'm never happy with what i have.. & i hate that... i'm such SPOILED BRAT & i hate it....i could go on & on & on about how many things i want right now in my life... but i'm not. cuz mainly it will just put me in a bad mood.
gawd... also vish is going away next summer for 10 months.... she's gonna be a foreign exchange student.... & well right now i dont feel to sad about it.. but i know when it becomes like a week or so before she leaves... i'm gonna be sooo sad.... cuz i mean i've been threw SOOOOOOO much with her since i've met her which is about 4 years now...i dunno... its just gonn be weird to think that for 10 months my best friend is living a whole new life on the other side of the world..... & even though i will know she's still here... it will seem like she's gone for ever.... like yeah.. i dunno how to put that into words..... but also i'm soooo afraid of what will happen when she gets back.. i mean its just gonna be soo weird..... UGH I HATE CHANGE...... mainly.. i just dont want you to go vish... but yet i do at the same time... gawd....
ugh... so i had so much more i wanted to type out but of course the friggen internet had to disconnect & i lost my train of thought.
i also still have to finish cleaning my room & clean my bathroom downstairs & then do the dishes... its & 5... & i dont want to do any of it..... gawd... my mom is dumb
so later on tonight kym, sara, ashley V. & some samantha girl are coming to my house to hang out, watch the sisterhood of the traveling pants & order a pizza i believe... & i sooo hope i will be in a better mood by then... cuz right now i'm in such a pissy/winey mood.... & i hate it
and another thing that has been REALLY PISSING me offf lately is that how teachers or any other adult that is not my parent, grandparent or aunt or uncle that "yells" or tells me what they expect of me... I HATE IT... like ms. rathbun... i was about ready to jump out of my seat & just strangle her... cuz she kept giong on & on & on about how we should act at this thing on monday.. & WERE NOT DUMB... we know that it is something serious... & i personally dont think i need to listen your annoying voice tell me how to act & how you will "PERSONALLY escort us out of the auditorium.." OH BITE ME BITCH..... its bad enough us kids have to listen to our parents & relatives tell us right from wrong & what not.. but to have some strange adult you've only known for a few months do that just really bothers me...... i hate it.
yeah so currently i'm guessing my grandma bonnie & i are still fighting.... cuz of something that happened a few weekends ago... & it was completely my fault & i apoligized to her & everything... cuz i was just mis informed.... so yeah ever since then she has just ignored me & what not.... & it just pisses me off & hurts me soooo much to know that she is still holding a grudge against me for a mistake i made & for a mistake i appoligized for....
i hate people... i hate my self... i hate how i complain about everything yet half the things i complain about i do to other peope or whatever....
alright so now i'm just MAJORILY annoyed... mainly at myself.. & other people... but blahhh
i'll update later on tonight or not? i dunno
UGH MY MOM IS SOOO ANNOYING >:o
so yeah.... as i was downstairs in my room cleaning i was going threw stuff & i found a whole bunch of stuff i had saved from when i went to colorado with mals family... (like my plane ticket, stuff from amy & eriks wedding.. & blah blah blah) & even though i was gone for 3 days... it was one of the best 3 days i had all year..... i just wish i could go & get away again for a few days... but i dont know of any more "big trips" i'll be taking again this year... which really sucks..... i mean i know i will be going up to chicago for the day on november 20 to see Harry Potter 4 on IMAX & then to PF Changs to eat... & i sooooo cant wait cuz i love it in chicago... but still i want soemthing more..
sadly i ALWAYS want something more... i'm never happy with what i have.. & i hate that... i'm such SPOILED BRAT & i hate it....i could go on & on & on about how many things i want right now in my life... but i'm not. cuz mainly it will just put me in a bad mood.
gawd... also vish is going away next summer for 10 months.... she's gonna be a foreign exchange student.... & well right now i dont feel to sad about it.. but i know when it becomes like a week or so before she leaves... i'm gonna be sooo sad.... cuz i mean i've been threw SOOOOOOO much with her since i've met her which is about 4 years now...i dunno... its just gonn be weird to think that for 10 months my best friend is living a whole new life on the other side of the world..... & even though i will know she's still here... it will seem like she's gone for ever.... like yeah.. i dunno how to put that into words..... but also i'm soooo afraid of what will happen when she gets back.. i mean its just gonna be soo weird..... UGH I HATE CHANGE...... mainly.. i just dont want you to go vish... but yet i do at the same time... gawd....
ugh... so i had so much more i wanted to type out but of course the friggen internet had to disconnect & i lost my train of thought.
i also still have to finish cleaning my room & clean my bathroom downstairs & then do the dishes... its & 5... & i dont want to do any of it..... gawd... my mom is dumb
so later on tonight kym, sara, ashley V. & some samantha girl are coming to my house to hang out, watch the sisterhood of the traveling pants & order a pizza i believe... & i sooo hope i will be in a better mood by then... cuz right now i'm in such a pissy/winey mood.... & i hate it
and another thing that has been REALLY PISSING me offf lately is that how teachers or any other adult that is not my parent, grandparent or aunt or uncle that "yells" or tells me what they expect of me... I HATE IT... like ms. rathbun... i was about ready to jump out of my seat & just strangle her... cuz she kept giong on & on & on about how we should act at this thing on monday.. & WERE NOT DUMB... we know that it is something serious... & i personally dont think i need to listen your annoying voice tell me how to act & how you will "PERSONALLY escort us out of the auditorium.." OH BITE ME BITCH..... its bad enough us kids have to listen to our parents & relatives tell us right from wrong & what not.. but to have some strange adult you've only known for a few months do that just really bothers me...... i hate it.
yeah so currently i'm guessing my grandma bonnie & i are still fighting.... cuz of something that happened a few weekends ago... & it was completely my fault & i apoligized to her & everything... cuz i was just mis informed.... so yeah ever since then she has just ignored me & what not.... & it just pisses me off & hurts me soooo much to know that she is still holding a grudge against me for a mistake i made & for a mistake i appoligized for....
i hate people... i hate my self... i hate how i complain about everything yet half the things i complain about i do to other peope or whatever....
alright so now i'm just MAJORILY annoyed... mainly at myself.. & other people... but blahhh
i'll update later on tonight or not? i dunno
UGH MY MOM IS SOOO ANNOYING >:o