I left again tonight!
I am at my grams house tonight.. Cleo will hate me but ill have to deal with her later. I am having such a hard time getting ready for my daughter. So hard that i feel suffocated, and that i will not be the right dd that i need to be. I feel worthless cause cleo thinks im leaving cause of her or to go play games or to cheat on her and im not. I leave cause im not ready for this and i know it, but also because i dont think i can be the right person cleo and rosalynn will need. I can't keep a job or even go look for one. I just think if i was gone this would be alot easier for her. There are times i want to die but i remember i have a great love in my life like cleo and decide i cant go yet. Cleo i love you, please understand there are reasons i leave but i love you so very fukkin much ok baby...
Live free or die
Live free or die