Oct 18, 2003 23:01
Well er1 sry havnt updated this in 4eva, but yea life sux so i didnt think about it...iv been 2 busy being a dumb ass n not understanding like wats goin on wit me n kendall...its all mai fault its being so hard on me i jus refuse to understand the fact that she doesnt want 2 be with me anymore..im jus stubern i guess n jus cant let her go...as the days go on i am understandin more n more that its done for good, seems as each day passes we talk less n less, we dont cuddle anymore nothing..soon she will prolly be with sum1 else all the time...so i guess its all over all i ever lived for only person i loved that much is gone...soon will be gone forever it seems, i wish it wasnt happening but there nuthin i can do anymore its all up to kendall...i love her so much n dont want 2 move on but seems as if she is and wants me to...i cant handle ne thing ne more, i get no sleep over this i dunno wat to do...i prolly wont be talkn in this much anymore untill i am understanding more as of where i am in life, cuz rite now i have nuthin...bye