Realizations (or however you spell it)
During this coffee break I am taking I've decided to post some things I've been mulling over.
I am an academic masochist. I like to have pain inflicted on me but not physical pain, rather I like to spend countless hours reading papers and memorizing data.
I must like it, otherwise WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING? Why in the freaking universe am I wasting my unretriebable youth locked in a room?!!
I could easily quit all this idiotic bullshit and work at BK just spending my paychecks on manga and anime. I could be a leech on my parents teat and do nothing!
But no!!! I have to study. I have to read. I have to have a career!!
What's wrong with me? Why don't I feel satisfaction if I'm not busy?!! Why go through all the pressure and all the nervous breakdowns I'm going through??!!
Well then, it must be academic masochism. I must like this.
Why the hell can't I be a normal idiot and just go for the lower standards life hands out!!
I am an academic masochist. I like to have pain inflicted on me but not physical pain, rather I like to spend countless hours reading papers and memorizing data.
I must like it, otherwise WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING? Why in the freaking universe am I wasting my unretriebable youth locked in a room?!!
I could easily quit all this idiotic bullshit and work at BK just spending my paychecks on manga and anime. I could be a leech on my parents teat and do nothing!
But no!!! I have to study. I have to read. I have to have a career!!
What's wrong with me? Why don't I feel satisfaction if I'm not busy?!! Why go through all the pressure and all the nervous breakdowns I'm going through??!!
Well then, it must be academic masochism. I must like this.
Why the hell can't I be a normal idiot and just go for the lower standards life hands out!!